Woke up several times during the night. Woke up late with signs of a respiratory infection. Or maybe just irritation from paint fumes and dust.
Not feeling so hot but knee and shoulders feel better. Took a bunch of medication and vitamins.
No matter if they help, going to get moving shortly and get as much done as I can. Really hope to be completely done with painting today, aside from daughter's room. Maybe even there. I am bored and frustrated with painting now. I need to get to other tasks.
Seriously want to get one more area finished besides the sunken living room. Just for motivation. Once I get the window frames painted, that will be the outside of the house finished (counting the yard separately).
Guess I'm being impatient now. I know once I finish painting and can get various rooms actually finished things will move really fast. Because then each room will fall like dominoes.
I've said that I am anxious about this in a negative way. However, I am also anxious to get to AL, see my daughter and talk with her. I want to get things straightened out with her. This situation is tearing me up.
Signed on for two shifts this weekend. Just a practical matter. Maintain some kind of income and keep my employment with the company continuous. Then I could just transfer when I get to AL. Though the company retains seniority if you go back to work with them within two years of discharge. Not even sure I want to work at any of their facilities there. I'd much prefer to tour them before deciding. Working 4-6 shifts a month maintains my basic living expenses now, since I've turned everything off but basic utilities. I eat on as little as $3 a day. Hardly drive anywhere. Think my last tank of gas lasted a month, maybe more.
I know I said I would not try and estimate a date of completion but I do think I can be done with everything within one more week. Keep saying that but I've had blinders on before. Now I have gotten enough done that it seems more realistic.
I definitely have examined just why I am taking so long with this. Other than obvious complications, I have taken into consideration that I could have sold the house for a lower price by now. Part of it is not wanting to get less than I owe on the house, which is a valid concern. Then I'd be paying on a house I don't live in for who knows how long? But I want to make a profit. If I have to do all this work then I'd like to have something to show for it for security. Part of it is pride because I want to leave the house in much better condition than I moved into it. And for whoever buys the house to not have any major problems for a long time. I want people to be able to invite friends and family in the house as soon as they move in and be proud of it. Like I wish I could have.
When I first moved in, I was getting the house into a condition I could have been proud of. Then the power went out, I had employment problems and from there it all seemed to go to shit which I never really recovered from. I'm hoping AL will be a new start. I've lived like a pig at times here and am not proud of it. That's not who or how I am.
Not feeling so hot but knee and shoulders feel better. Took a bunch of medication and vitamins.
No matter if they help, going to get moving shortly and get as much done as I can. Really hope to be completely done with painting today, aside from daughter's room. Maybe even there. I am bored and frustrated with painting now. I need to get to other tasks.
Seriously want to get one more area finished besides the sunken living room. Just for motivation. Once I get the window frames painted, that will be the outside of the house finished (counting the yard separately).
Guess I'm being impatient now. I know once I finish painting and can get various rooms actually finished things will move really fast. Because then each room will fall like dominoes.
I've said that I am anxious about this in a negative way. However, I am also anxious to get to AL, see my daughter and talk with her. I want to get things straightened out with her. This situation is tearing me up.
Signed on for two shifts this weekend. Just a practical matter. Maintain some kind of income and keep my employment with the company continuous. Then I could just transfer when I get to AL. Though the company retains seniority if you go back to work with them within two years of discharge. Not even sure I want to work at any of their facilities there. I'd much prefer to tour them before deciding. Working 4-6 shifts a month maintains my basic living expenses now, since I've turned everything off but basic utilities. I eat on as little as $3 a day. Hardly drive anywhere. Think my last tank of gas lasted a month, maybe more.
I know I said I would not try and estimate a date of completion but I do think I can be done with everything within one more week. Keep saying that but I've had blinders on before. Now I have gotten enough done that it seems more realistic.
I definitely have examined just why I am taking so long with this. Other than obvious complications, I have taken into consideration that I could have sold the house for a lower price by now. Part of it is not wanting to get less than I owe on the house, which is a valid concern. Then I'd be paying on a house I don't live in for who knows how long? But I want to make a profit. If I have to do all this work then I'd like to have something to show for it for security. Part of it is pride because I want to leave the house in much better condition than I moved into it. And for whoever buys the house to not have any major problems for a long time. I want people to be able to invite friends and family in the house as soon as they move in and be proud of it. Like I wish I could have.
When I first moved in, I was getting the house into a condition I could have been proud of. Then the power went out, I had employment problems and from there it all seemed to go to shit which I never really recovered from. I'm hoping AL will be a new start. I've lived like a pig at times here and am not proud of it. That's not who or how I am.
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