Here comes the heat

I had been telling people for some time that once this virus gets into the prison, it will spread uncontrolled through 3000 inmates, security and medical staff. Our odds of contracting it, symptoms or no symptoms, are 100%. 

Well, here it is. Two officers that work one dorm came up positive. That dorm is on "quarantine". Which, for AL means they eat at the same time and in the same mess hall as the inmates from other dorms and are released out in the yard at the same time as other dorms. But they have to wear masks. Because prison inmates are know to be compliant and have such great hygiene. Yeah, I'm sure they're all washing their hands.

Really miss seeing my daughter. I know she is frustrated being stuck at home so much. Not much I can do about it. Bought a book and gave her some money this week. Just to let her know I am thinking about her. We text once in a while through the week. 

I called my doc to ask for a refill and increased dosage of Prozac and a muscle relaxer. I didn't get a call back. So I will be out of Prozac. 

Finally got out and cut the front yard. Sure the neighbors will be happy. I still need to blow leaves once they are dry enough. Get the back yard sometime this coming week at my leisure. 

Got parts to do rear brakes today. In total, I've spent around $400-$450 on the car in a few weeks. Though once I am done I will have new brakes, new struts, new plugs, tightened or new belts, AC recharge and an oil change. Sure could not get that much for that price without doing it myself. 

I got a grow tent. A really large one. I am trying to grow plants for myself. Have enough room for quite a few. Ordered some better grow lights and a fan for it, also. The fan arrived. For now, the lights I had aren't doing badly with the reflective interior material. Took six cuttings from a female plant and they all seem to be surviving. So by now I think they should have roots. From those I can later take more cuttings and expand the number of plants. Indoor grows have pathetic output from what I've seen so far. So keeping a rotation going is my best bet. 

Obviously, not planning on selling anything. Can always reduce plants if I get a decent stock. Keep 1 or 2 in vegetative state, which allows them to grow stronger. I need to do that in the rotation, any way. They make for stronger clones. Don't have anything right now but vegetation. Bummer.

I was expecting to have company for dinner tonight. Didn't work out. She slept all day and went back to sleep. Seems like that's what all the women I know here do. And interrupt me. 

I am actively trying to find a live-in submissive. I'm not in a hurry. Definitely going to get to know them first. Worst that can happen is I get laid. 

Isolation

For a few weeks now, the US has been implementing isolation procedures, social distancing and so forth. Bars and gyms are closed. Schools are closed. I can't see my daughter because of the risk posed by the corona virus to her, with a history of asthma and the apprehension of her mother and stepfather. 

Her mother denies either she or her husband have any health issues but I am very questioning of that. Not going to say anything. It would be pointless, rude and invasive. Only reason I may do so would be if I was offering medical advice to be helpful. Unless thay ask at some point, I won't intrude.

I miss having time with my daughter. Not worth the risk to her to see her. I'm glad she is healthy but bored having to stay home all the time. She's doing home schooling again. Glad there is something to break the monotony.

Also have not seen my gf since early Feb, around Valentine's Day. Been celibate since January. She has been sick with some respiratory infection for at least 6 weeks and I cannot see her because of the virus as well. Too risky for her.

Though she has been weakly responsive online as well. Even when I know she's awake, I can send a message and don't get a response for long periods, often hours. Not like it matters. It should be obvious I have established my own emotional distance from her. I just got tired of always being a nurse, caregiver and therapist. 

I've written many times about the decreasing intimacy and affection for a very long time prior to the virus coming along. Being celibate since January was not much of a change. Being alone all the time is not much of a change. 

I am going to say I am considering seeking a live-in submissive. It would take a lot of talking to be sure we were emotionally compatible. Some of this may sound bad, like I am taking advantage of current economic conditions. I'll admit it would be true to an extent. Lots of people are in increasingly dire straits. Meanwhile a lot of relationships are breaking up as they have more close conatct with each other. I may as well see what is possible in these conditions. Not looking to impose anything on anyone which they object to. It could be an improvement in conditions for both of us. Obviously not going to seek out or take in anyone with whom it would obviously result in conflict. No drug addicts, thieves or alcoholics. Nobody with violent tendencies. It could help us both because I would benefit from having help with the housework and so forth, in addition to social/emotional needs. 

It's worth a try. I'm sick of being alone and emotionally abandoned, isolated. Tired of feeling like a convenience easily ignored. I need more, deserve more. 

I have increased production of videos and have been doing more videos than writing lately but doing a bit of both. 

Had problems with my web host. I am going to move the web site to a new host. The only resolution this one offered was a plan which cost over $30 a month, as opposed to less than $60 a year. My site does not take up that much space and paying that much makes no sense at this point. I'd be paying out a LOT more than I bring in from content.