Monday, July 29, 2019

Depression

I am in a depression. Not a biological cycle. A depression.

Maybe it's been the same for years and across different places. However, here in AL since I got here I feel like my voice on a personal level doesn't matter to anyone. The only time anyone cares is to the extent that I am there for them. 

Not just my voice. I don't matter. 

Oh, well. I guess it doesn't matter. 

Tuesday, July 16, 2019

New ideas

Not sure I mentioned it in my personal blog before now but I bought two web domains and have built a website called Rally and Protest. The idea is a central website where any protest or political rally can list their events for a reasonable price. Events will be listed by city and state. The only exceptions are that it will not host anything by hate groups or anyone affiliated with hate groups. 

So far I have not gotten any listings. Can't afford advertising yet. 

At the same time, two new nurses have been hired at work and are coming to the night shift. That may well cut into my hours. 

A little apprehensive but at the same time I can take it as an opportunity. Do more work on my book, which I have not had time to finish. Plus work on the new website. 

I've had the website for a few weeks now. Been bummed it hasn't done anything but I need to put more effort into it. That comes with the contradiction of not having time to put into it. 

The concept is that there is currently no central website which lists political events regardless of party or organization. I have seen many political events I would have taken part in through the years but did not know about them until they were over. I think many people have had similar experiences. With one website, more people would become more politically involved. Right now you have to subscribe to specific candidates, parties and organizational newsletters to know if or when an event will happen. 

The website will be for a fee. That helps maintain the website, in addition to allowing me have the time to work on it, money to promote it, etc. If it becomes large enough, I will cut my hours nursing or quit nursing.

Only last night I suddenly had the realization that this is something for which I could apply for grants. That would definitely help. Some people may not like it but I intend to talk to the Soros organization and a few others. However, if any funding comes with changing the intended purpose or goals, I will refuse the funding. I also only want the funding to be short term, until it gets off the ground. 

Some organizations may not like the fact that the site is non-partisan or that I am pretty far left and a Social Democrat. No question that will reduce my options.

Applying for nonprofit status and grants is something I've never done. Need to read up on it. Mentioned it to my gf, who has done those things. She just kept talking about something else. Not even sure she heard me or if it matters. No offer of help. 

So, as usual, I am on my own. Nothing new about that. That's my whole life.