Tuesday, December 27, 2016

After Christmas

Still bouncing back and forth between day shift and evenings at work. Not terribly happy about that, as I was told I was replacing another nurse who was retiring. She retired week before last and I am still bouncing. 

Now I am being told they had to hire someone else for the morning shift. They fired a nurse not long ago for charting on a patient who had disappeared. Then found at a hotel, drunk. He had charted on her as if she were there. New nurse orienting today but he is supposed to be PRN (as needed). He also has another job. So not sure how that will play out. 

I am happier and more settled in at this job than I was for a while. Though I am considering some offers I am getting. At this point, I am more concerned with the money from the bonus and the fact that I may be able to transfer to another facility in AL when I move. Though I do not have any emotional ties to the people I work with. That's not me. It definitely is them. 

Daughter sent me a Galileo thermometer for Christmas. Her mother sent me a Da Vinci clock kit. Hmm. Guess that tells me what image I have with them. Yeah, it fits. 

They are still not getting out to do or see much there. Damn. I'm an introvert but when I move to a new place I get out and see the sights, meet people, etc. I have really been the worst about introversion since moving here and that's because of the social structure here. 

Couple of the neighbors gave me some small gifts for Christmas. I had thought of making sweet rolls or cookies to give people but I have been too tired, too busy, too apathetic about Christmas this year. Too emotionally distanced by being left on the ground bleeding and actively assaulted. I know that was not all of them but it sure feels that way. To be honest, when they dropped off their gifts, each one looked embarrassed, sheepish. Maybe I should take that as a hint that more people witnessed the situation than I originally thought. 

Nobody ever checked on me. Not once. 

I am continuing my effort online to quell the hate and build a more positive movement. It is resulting in me having to eliminate some people from my "friends" list that will not let go of their need for confrontation and negativity. I want to associate with people on issues. Not hate and anger. I know it's easy to fall into that trap but it's mandatory to escape it. We cannot accomplish anything by keeping this country divided as it is.

Wednesday, December 7, 2016

No more cheese

Night before last, I decided to try a frozen pizza, just to see how my body would handle it.

Now good. My intolerance to lactose has gotten worse, it seems. Or at least more noticeable. Yesterday I had gas that could kill anyone nearby. Took some lactobacillus and that helped a bit. Though over the course of the day I got more fatigued and more irritable. 

Medicated myself last night and went to bed early. Really hoped to sleep in late. That didn't happen. Yet I was still really tired. Then a little while ago, I came down with diarrhea. That explains the symptoms.

Not much else to explain it. No pain involved. No nausea or vomiting. Only had pork and rice for dinner last night, which didn't cause it. And could not have caused problems before eating it. 

Doesn't feel like it will last long. Maybe I can get a little more sleep before work. 

Made a few decisions about the job. One is that making any positive changes will be wasted effort. Same as the rest of New Mexico. "This is how we've always done things and we're not changing it." Heard basically those words several times now. Plus reported a complaint about the kitchen and was met with an attempt at intimidation. 

I was not intimidated but not going to put myself on a limb. This place isn't worth it. 

The other decision is that I will remain here until time to move. If I was going to remain here I would absolutely be looking for another job. Right now, just going to focus on keeping my resume stable and improving my finances. 

I signed on to pick up 1.5 extra shifts over the next couple of weeks. Make some OT pay. That will add nicely to the OT and bonus on the check coming out this weekend or Monday. The second part of the bonus will come in Feb. Last and largest part in April. If I pull extra hours now and then, I hope to have at least $8-10k in savings by the time I move. No urge to be screwed as soon as I arrive in AL.