So, my gf got here around 5:30.
She's been sick again this week. Tried to get her to go to the doctor all week. She chose today, the one day I could see her, after her hair appointment.
I understand illness. I'm a nurse. But it seems she doesn't miss me quite the way she claims. Nor does she want me the way she claims.
So, my best bet is to start seeing other women. Not going to actively seek anyone out but at this point, if someone I am attracted to physically offers me their number I will not refuse.
Said it before, I'll say it again. I have no urge to be in a committed, allegedly monogamous relationship which is really just platonic. I love her very much but that's not fair to me. I'm not even being fair to myself this way. I just wind up feeling unattractive and largely unwanted.
Not sure what I am doing to myself here.
Oh, to be clear, none of that means I would go behind her back and cheat.
So many things have been interfering with me getting to the gym. I finally decided to start doing some exercises at home when I cannot get to the gym. If nothing else, I can do crunches for my abdomen. Not as many strength training exercises. I'm rather happy with how many crunches I can do, when not doing them with legs raised or on an incline. I am going to try and develop more of a six pack, since I have the faint outline of one. Doesn't hurt anything to try. In any case, it would mean I'd strengthen my core muscles. Good for preventing back injuries and carrying heavy loads.
She's been sick again this week. Tried to get her to go to the doctor all week. She chose today, the one day I could see her, after her hair appointment.
I understand illness. I'm a nurse. But it seems she doesn't miss me quite the way she claims. Nor does she want me the way she claims.
So, my best bet is to start seeing other women. Not going to actively seek anyone out but at this point, if someone I am attracted to physically offers me their number I will not refuse.
Said it before, I'll say it again. I have no urge to be in a committed, allegedly monogamous relationship which is really just platonic. I love her very much but that's not fair to me. I'm not even being fair to myself this way. I just wind up feeling unattractive and largely unwanted.
Not sure what I am doing to myself here.
Oh, to be clear, none of that means I would go behind her back and cheat.
So many things have been interfering with me getting to the gym. I finally decided to start doing some exercises at home when I cannot get to the gym. If nothing else, I can do crunches for my abdomen. Not as many strength training exercises. I'm rather happy with how many crunches I can do, when not doing them with legs raised or on an incline. I am going to try and develop more of a six pack, since I have the faint outline of one. Doesn't hurt anything to try. In any case, it would mean I'd strengthen my core muscles. Good for preventing back injuries and carrying heavy loads.
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