So, Fri morning I resigned from my job. It was a difficult decision. But when I looked at all the complications involved, the pay, the schedule, not knowing if I would be signed off to work independently for another month, I found it the best choice to make.
I felt it was better to make the decision now rather than wait. It is better not only for me but for the company.
Of course, the down side is that I am counting on my tax refund. Though if not contested by federal or state tax agencies, both will arrive in less than 3 weeks. Crossing my fingers.
One thing that prompted the decision was that I got a call offering an interview at the prison on Monday. I was scheduled to work on Monday. After that, I would be unable to interview until the next week. So if they do not hire me at Tutwiler, I will interview for the night shift position at Kilby. I would prefer the morning shift position but I've spent most of my life on the night shift, so it would not pose a challenge. All depends mostly on the weekend issue. Though that is not so much of a problem since daughter will be out of school and working Saturdays soon.
This is getting complicated.
GF and I got into a bit of a dispute Fri. Almost broke up. Mostly because when I told her I may well be working at the women's prison, it caused her to basically say she does not trust me. I've done nothing to earn that. I've made myself available any time I could see her. Offered to give her a key to my place. Told her she can come over any time she wants. If I'm not with her, I'm usually talking to her online when we're both awake. The ONLY reason I have said for her to text me before coming over was to be sure I was home. Though I typically let her know when I will not be home.
I've turned down multiple jobs at a decent wage because of the schedules. Not only about weekends but because they were evening shifts and I would never see her. Only to be told now that she does not trust me enough for me to take a job at a women's prison.
Eventually she recanted. I did not want to break up over that. But I would rather be alone and free to do as I wish than put my emotions and efforts into the limitations necessary to earn her trust and not have it. I've been through that and the distrust never ends.
On the other hand, I'm horny as hell. Yes, I want a truly active sex life. Which is not happening. She is making promises again but those promises have been spoken before and never went anywhere. Honestly, by the time she recanted her distrust, I had reactivated and edited my singles ads. Not for friendship, definitely not for romance. Just for sex. I'm not taking them down yet. Not until I see some kind of difference happening. I'd rather have some kind of potential contact started and be able to back out than keep being celibate. I don't like sex without emotional connection but if she and I break up, I'm sure as hell not going to look for any other emotional connection. I'd rather fuck anything attractive that moves. Once again, I will not cheat behind her back. But not going to keep going this direction.
I felt it was better to make the decision now rather than wait. It is better not only for me but for the company.
Of course, the down side is that I am counting on my tax refund. Though if not contested by federal or state tax agencies, both will arrive in less than 3 weeks. Crossing my fingers.
One thing that prompted the decision was that I got a call offering an interview at the prison on Monday. I was scheduled to work on Monday. After that, I would be unable to interview until the next week. So if they do not hire me at Tutwiler, I will interview for the night shift position at Kilby. I would prefer the morning shift position but I've spent most of my life on the night shift, so it would not pose a challenge. All depends mostly on the weekend issue. Though that is not so much of a problem since daughter will be out of school and working Saturdays soon.
This is getting complicated.
GF and I got into a bit of a dispute Fri. Almost broke up. Mostly because when I told her I may well be working at the women's prison, it caused her to basically say she does not trust me. I've done nothing to earn that. I've made myself available any time I could see her. Offered to give her a key to my place. Told her she can come over any time she wants. If I'm not with her, I'm usually talking to her online when we're both awake. The ONLY reason I have said for her to text me before coming over was to be sure I was home. Though I typically let her know when I will not be home.
I've turned down multiple jobs at a decent wage because of the schedules. Not only about weekends but because they were evening shifts and I would never see her. Only to be told now that she does not trust me enough for me to take a job at a women's prison.
Eventually she recanted. I did not want to break up over that. But I would rather be alone and free to do as I wish than put my emotions and efforts into the limitations necessary to earn her trust and not have it. I've been through that and the distrust never ends.
On the other hand, I'm horny as hell. Yes, I want a truly active sex life. Which is not happening. She is making promises again but those promises have been spoken before and never went anywhere. Honestly, by the time she recanted her distrust, I had reactivated and edited my singles ads. Not for friendship, definitely not for romance. Just for sex. I'm not taking them down yet. Not until I see some kind of difference happening. I'd rather have some kind of potential contact started and be able to back out than keep being celibate. I don't like sex without emotional connection but if she and I break up, I'm sure as hell not going to look for any other emotional connection. I'd rather fuck anything attractive that moves. Once again, I will not cheat behind her back. But not going to keep going this direction.
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