Had a bad day at work yesterday. Felt exhausted all day. Did not feel like waking up yesterday morning. Then last night I had a cough which made it hard to go to sleep. Woke this morning and realized I have a low level respiratory infection. I apparently was sweating in my sleep, so I'm fighting it off. I don't think it's infectious. I haven't had a productive cough. Not sure what it is.
To make it worse (or because of it), I felt sore all over from working out really hard for two days in a row.
Today is a long day, 10 hours. Oh, well. I'll live through it.
Interview tomorrow. If they make an offer with higher pay, I've already decided I'll take it. Yes, that's really jumping the gun. I would want to tour the facility and determine what the job entails. I've noted the company has a number of charge nurse positions open all over the place. Maybe they've gone through a corporate change. Or maybe the title is misleading. I find the job description questionable. So I have suspicions which must be answered. So far, the more I think about it, I am willing to seriously consider it. Charge nurse, possibly more pay, 6-2, sign on bonus. Have to find out what the weekend schedule is. And all that is assuming they make an offer. But I applied Sun night and they called Mon morning, so that's a sign of interest. By Career Builder, they have only viewed 2 resumes, mine included.
She came over Mon night and for a while last night. I know I keep bouncing back and forth emotionally. Can't believe I am being so unstable. I love her, no question of that. Honestly, if I did not then I would be more emotionally stable. There would be less risk. For now, I am going to ride it out and see where we go. I feel a bond to her on too many levels and it's not worth throwing away. It's also likely I was being overly emotional because I was getting sick and didn't know it. I always get emotional before I get sick. Then figure that out once the actual illness manifests. I hate that. Doesn't mean my emotions are not real, just that I overreact. That said, weeks at a time of celibacy is not fun and has happened multiple times. It does become questionable after a while, especially this early in a relationship.
I hope things stabilize more once my schedule is set. More so if I get a job with a better schedule. If this one does not pan out, I plan on applying for several other morning positions. Even if in a jail or prison. The pay and schedule matter. And I see more politics in play at this job than I saw at first. That is always hidden in the beginning and shows as time goes on.
To make it worse (or because of it), I felt sore all over from working out really hard for two days in a row.
Today is a long day, 10 hours. Oh, well. I'll live through it.
Interview tomorrow. If they make an offer with higher pay, I've already decided I'll take it. Yes, that's really jumping the gun. I would want to tour the facility and determine what the job entails. I've noted the company has a number of charge nurse positions open all over the place. Maybe they've gone through a corporate change. Or maybe the title is misleading. I find the job description questionable. So I have suspicions which must be answered. So far, the more I think about it, I am willing to seriously consider it. Charge nurse, possibly more pay, 6-2, sign on bonus. Have to find out what the weekend schedule is. And all that is assuming they make an offer. But I applied Sun night and they called Mon morning, so that's a sign of interest. By Career Builder, they have only viewed 2 resumes, mine included.
She came over Mon night and for a while last night. I know I keep bouncing back and forth emotionally. Can't believe I am being so unstable. I love her, no question of that. Honestly, if I did not then I would be more emotionally stable. There would be less risk. For now, I am going to ride it out and see where we go. I feel a bond to her on too many levels and it's not worth throwing away. It's also likely I was being overly emotional because I was getting sick and didn't know it. I always get emotional before I get sick. Then figure that out once the actual illness manifests. I hate that. Doesn't mean my emotions are not real, just that I overreact. That said, weeks at a time of celibacy is not fun and has happened multiple times. It does become questionable after a while, especially this early in a relationship.
I hope things stabilize more once my schedule is set. More so if I get a job with a better schedule. If this one does not pan out, I plan on applying for several other morning positions. Even if in a jail or prison. The pay and schedule matter. And I see more politics in play at this job than I saw at first. That is always hidden in the beginning and shows as time goes on.
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