Part of my behavior makes sense now.
I think I am heading into a manic state. Not completely sure but will know in a day or two. Explains why my writing has been speeding up again. (It slowed to a near halt for a while, then accelerated rapidly.) Why I have felt horny so much. Somewhat anxious, at least to the degree that I start demanding results. Increased strength and endurance at the gym.
Lastly, why I barely slept, if at all last night. I laid down several times but don't think I slept at all.
So, I'm not expecting to get much sleep this week. Guess it's good timing that I quit my last job. I'll probably get a lot of writing done.
I've noticed something strange. Just before I go into a manic state, I think I tend to get a lot of muscle spasms. Then they disappear once I go into it.
Does this explain the rapid weight loss not long ago? I went up to 175.6, then back down to 169.2 lbs. Can it be that being manic is my natural state but I'm held back by weight loss? Once I gain weight, does that spark the inception of a manic state? It's very much worth experimenting in trying to maintain a higher weight.
Just checked and my income tax refund comes in this week. Between 4/25 and 4/30. So, it should be credited 4/25 or 4/26.
Bad news but good timing. I think the timing belt is getting ready to go out on the van. Glad it's happening while I'm not working and the taxes should be coming in. I do think I will check on how much it would cost to have someone else do it. If too expensive, I'll do it myself. I checked and there's enough clearance to not have to pull the engine. Take a full day or two. Happily, there's a Pep Boys not far away. Walking distance. They're more expensive than Auto Zone but if I need any additional parts or supplies while doing it, that's an option. So I think I will buy the parts at least. Then get the brakes done while I have it taken apart, all in one shot. New belts. Get a kit that includes a new water pump and idlers maybe.
Got a text via FB from gf a few minutes ago. Seems she forgot that today is my bd. FB tells you. I'm guessing I should forget about getting what I wanted for my bd.
I think I am heading into a manic state. Not completely sure but will know in a day or two. Explains why my writing has been speeding up again. (It slowed to a near halt for a while, then accelerated rapidly.) Why I have felt horny so much. Somewhat anxious, at least to the degree that I start demanding results. Increased strength and endurance at the gym.
Lastly, why I barely slept, if at all last night. I laid down several times but don't think I slept at all.
So, I'm not expecting to get much sleep this week. Guess it's good timing that I quit my last job. I'll probably get a lot of writing done.
I've noticed something strange. Just before I go into a manic state, I think I tend to get a lot of muscle spasms. Then they disappear once I go into it.
Does this explain the rapid weight loss not long ago? I went up to 175.6, then back down to 169.2 lbs. Can it be that being manic is my natural state but I'm held back by weight loss? Once I gain weight, does that spark the inception of a manic state? It's very much worth experimenting in trying to maintain a higher weight.
Just checked and my income tax refund comes in this week. Between 4/25 and 4/30. So, it should be credited 4/25 or 4/26.
Bad news but good timing. I think the timing belt is getting ready to go out on the van. Glad it's happening while I'm not working and the taxes should be coming in. I do think I will check on how much it would cost to have someone else do it. If too expensive, I'll do it myself. I checked and there's enough clearance to not have to pull the engine. Take a full day or two. Happily, there's a Pep Boys not far away. Walking distance. They're more expensive than Auto Zone but if I need any additional parts or supplies while doing it, that's an option. So I think I will buy the parts at least. Then get the brakes done while I have it taken apart, all in one shot. New belts. Get a kit that includes a new water pump and idlers maybe.
Got a text via FB from gf a few minutes ago. Seems she forgot that today is my bd. FB tells you. I'm guessing I should forget about getting what I wanted for my bd.
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