So, it's a different week and my karma seems to have done a 180. Okay, maybe just a 90 because it wasn't bad, just not going the direction I wanted.
Interviewed at one prison yesterday. Was told I was interviewing for morning shift. Got there and was told there was no morning shift available. Interview almost ended there. Then we started talking about PRN for multiple facilities. The interview was really good from there.
As of this morning I am being considered for that position and they were ready to make an offer. However, I asked to also be considered for the night shift position at Kilby. I may interview by phone as soon as later today for that one.
In any case, looks like I will have a job with the prison medical system. I'm okay with that. Prisoners are human beings and deserve medical care. The tragedy is that they have better medical care than most civilians in this country do.
Tax refund has been received by the bank. Federal refund, that is. Pending deposit. Maybe they're making sure the federal government check doesn't bounce?
GF came over yesterday. Things seems to be taking a positive turn. We wore each other out last night. I'm still taking it easy on her physically because she said she doesn't want me to leave her too sore. Um, define too sore. Still no chains. Yet. I am going to be pushing that issue more aggressively in the near future.
So, I took down the ads. Suspended them, actually. I am going to wait and see how this plays out. Last night was one day. If that leads to 3-4 weeks of celibacy, I will activate them again and we will have that discussion.
I can still say I love her more than any woman I have ever known. I say that without reservation. The issue is not whether I love her because that cannot be denied. The issue is how much I love myself and how much I am willing to deny myself because of that love.
One thing is certain. I do still need to expand my social circle. Obviously that will be difficult here, just as in NM. People don't seem to want to socialize unless there is some form of sexual, monetary or religious profit for them. They won't socialize for the actual purpose of socialization. WTF? I keep trying to rethink my tactics but so far coming up short.
So, I have love, affection, sex, money and employment. Only thing I need to work on for the moment is socialization, which I've always sucked at.
Interviewed at one prison yesterday. Was told I was interviewing for morning shift. Got there and was told there was no morning shift available. Interview almost ended there. Then we started talking about PRN for multiple facilities. The interview was really good from there.
As of this morning I am being considered for that position and they were ready to make an offer. However, I asked to also be considered for the night shift position at Kilby. I may interview by phone as soon as later today for that one.
In any case, looks like I will have a job with the prison medical system. I'm okay with that. Prisoners are human beings and deserve medical care. The tragedy is that they have better medical care than most civilians in this country do.
Tax refund has been received by the bank. Federal refund, that is. Pending deposit. Maybe they're making sure the federal government check doesn't bounce?
GF came over yesterday. Things seems to be taking a positive turn. We wore each other out last night. I'm still taking it easy on her physically because she said she doesn't want me to leave her too sore. Um, define too sore. Still no chains. Yet. I am going to be pushing that issue more aggressively in the near future.
So, I took down the ads. Suspended them, actually. I am going to wait and see how this plays out. Last night was one day. If that leads to 3-4 weeks of celibacy, I will activate them again and we will have that discussion.
I can still say I love her more than any woman I have ever known. I say that without reservation. The issue is not whether I love her because that cannot be denied. The issue is how much I love myself and how much I am willing to deny myself because of that love.
One thing is certain. I do still need to expand my social circle. Obviously that will be difficult here, just as in NM. People don't seem to want to socialize unless there is some form of sexual, monetary or religious profit for them. They won't socialize for the actual purpose of socialization. WTF? I keep trying to rethink my tactics but so far coming up short.
So, I have love, affection, sex, money and employment. Only thing I need to work on for the moment is socialization, which I've always sucked at.
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