Not really sure what that was but I had a hard time sleeping last night. I kept having a dream of falling.
Theories say dreams of falling mean a fear of failing. That's definitely true. Now that I've finally gotten out of the hole I was in, I'm afraid of failing and falling back down. That's not an unreasonable fear. Been through too much of it for too long and it has seemed like I've been cursed.
Going to be a while before that fear goes away.
Glad I didn't order the swamp cooler motor yet. When the dust finally settled this morning, there were a couple of things I had forgotten I paid which didn't show up yesterday. Still 2 small bills to come out of my account. But things are now current, except the trash. Could afford the motor but I like to keep a buffer for emergencies, like a tow truck if necessary. I trust this car but if you can plan for emergencies they're not emergencies. Besides, I do want to keep a trend going where I carry some money over from each check so the amount gradually grows.
Theories say dreams of falling mean a fear of failing. That's definitely true. Now that I've finally gotten out of the hole I was in, I'm afraid of failing and falling back down. That's not an unreasonable fear. Been through too much of it for too long and it has seemed like I've been cursed.
Going to be a while before that fear goes away.
Glad I didn't order the swamp cooler motor yet. When the dust finally settled this morning, there were a couple of things I had forgotten I paid which didn't show up yesterday. Still 2 small bills to come out of my account. But things are now current, except the trash. Could afford the motor but I like to keep a buffer for emergencies, like a tow truck if necessary. I trust this car but if you can plan for emergencies they're not emergencies. Besides, I do want to keep a trend going where I carry some money over from each check so the amount gradually grows.
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