Finally got the pathology report in the mail today. Happy to say nothing more serious than what is already known. (Like what is known isn't enough.) So, I submitted a request for an appointment in a few weeks to address the issue. Best to get some medication to help keep things under control.
I did want to get the pathology report before setting an appointment. Just in case there was anything of more concern. I'd rather have a chance to absorb information and check available treatment options. Not fond of having limited choices placed in front of me on short notice. Also not fond of being placed under emotional stress in front of other people.
So, the front of my house has turned into a parking lot. Two cars, a truck and a motorcycle. Think I'm going to have to do something about that. Going to give the new car a chance, see how well it performs. If it does well enough, think I'll sell the Camaro. May be a better choice to put money into a vehicle that's running and the money would go further.
I have ultimately come to the decision that I no longer have the capacity for romance (as popularly defined) within me. I used to have a strong romantic side but it is now gone. I do admit my view of romance was mostly more lucid than the average person. I'm not grieving the loss of that side of me. Not completely closed to some future emotional involvement but it has to be on a different level. It may also include some level of romance but only if based on reality. I refuse to become involved in anything ever again which involves manipulation, power struggles, any form of abuse or having to ignore reality in favor of fantasy. My tolerance for any of those things was always low, any way.
I did want to get the pathology report before setting an appointment. Just in case there was anything of more concern. I'd rather have a chance to absorb information and check available treatment options. Not fond of having limited choices placed in front of me on short notice. Also not fond of being placed under emotional stress in front of other people.
So, the front of my house has turned into a parking lot. Two cars, a truck and a motorcycle. Think I'm going to have to do something about that. Going to give the new car a chance, see how well it performs. If it does well enough, think I'll sell the Camaro. May be a better choice to put money into a vehicle that's running and the money would go further.
I have ultimately come to the decision that I no longer have the capacity for romance (as popularly defined) within me. I used to have a strong romantic side but it is now gone. I do admit my view of romance was mostly more lucid than the average person. I'm not grieving the loss of that side of me. Not completely closed to some future emotional involvement but it has to be on a different level. It may also include some level of romance but only if based on reality. I refuse to become involved in anything ever again which involves manipulation, power struggles, any form of abuse or having to ignore reality in favor of fantasy. My tolerance for any of those things was always low, any way.
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