After my last post, she called me. I almost didn't answer but I did. She was on her way over here. I did not force any confrontation but did let it be known I was not happy. If she had texted, I would not have replied until at least Sunday.
She came over that night and yesterday. We spent time together. No sex but close and mostly with the TV off. That made me feel better.
Still, I am waiting to see how the next week plays out. Put any emotional arguments aside, I need sex. On my own terms. Hours at a time, uninhibited, unromantic, exhausting sex. Yes, I define it as a need, not a want.
Not sure what the deal is with me and Fri nights. I got some sleep last night but not much. Roughly 4-5 hours. Woke up and could not get back to sleep. Not feeling bad or sick in any way. Just no longer sleepy.
Slowed down at the gym again. Mostly because I am adapting to gaining muscle. Not in pain but uncomfortable. Gaining muscle mass changes your balance, your movements. It does take some adjusting. I've gained on arms, chest, shoulders, hips, butt and calves. Maybe thighs as well but less visually noticeable. I think I've even gained in my feet. That would make sense, as I've been doing toe raises on the squat machine for my calves. The feet support everything else. So all of that results in changes. Not bad changes but ones to get used to.
Not sure about the job I was offered. They are asking for my GED certificate. I don't have that. Have to see if and when I can obtain it. Nobody has asked for that since I either joined the Army or when I started college. At latest, when I applied to nursing school in 1993. Being ex-military and having a nursing license tends to negate the need for a GED or diploma.
So, if that is going to be a big problem, I think I will be getting my applications back out. I have to find something really soon.
I cashed in most of my remaining cryptocurrency yesterday. No choice. I'll buy back in when I have the money for it. May look further into other coins than the ones I have been holding. Which I was planning on at some point.
There has been a big Establishment move against crypto rising. That was expected. The reaction of skittish people was less expected. There was a huge selloff, driving values down. Oh, well. I do not see it being killed off, no matter how they try. But Wall Street is running scared.
I regained my motivation and started writing and doing videos again. One on antidepressants as so long I broke it in two parts. Mostly because people against stricter gun laws have been trying to divert attention from guns to mental health and medications. Those medications help millions of people. And there are definite reasons they have become so widespread. Failing economy, failing education system, 17 years of war, continuous scare tactics by the media and on and on. Any way, in getting more pieces out for publication, found some settings that had to be revised which explained why I have not made any money at all. It should be more straightforward but companies do what they can to make it difficult to get paid for your work while they make money from your writing. Hoping to start making something from it, if only a little.
She came over that night and yesterday. We spent time together. No sex but close and mostly with the TV off. That made me feel better.
Still, I am waiting to see how the next week plays out. Put any emotional arguments aside, I need sex. On my own terms. Hours at a time, uninhibited, unromantic, exhausting sex. Yes, I define it as a need, not a want.
Not sure what the deal is with me and Fri nights. I got some sleep last night but not much. Roughly 4-5 hours. Woke up and could not get back to sleep. Not feeling bad or sick in any way. Just no longer sleepy.
Slowed down at the gym again. Mostly because I am adapting to gaining muscle. Not in pain but uncomfortable. Gaining muscle mass changes your balance, your movements. It does take some adjusting. I've gained on arms, chest, shoulders, hips, butt and calves. Maybe thighs as well but less visually noticeable. I think I've even gained in my feet. That would make sense, as I've been doing toe raises on the squat machine for my calves. The feet support everything else. So all of that results in changes. Not bad changes but ones to get used to.
Not sure about the job I was offered. They are asking for my GED certificate. I don't have that. Have to see if and when I can obtain it. Nobody has asked for that since I either joined the Army or when I started college. At latest, when I applied to nursing school in 1993. Being ex-military and having a nursing license tends to negate the need for a GED or diploma.
So, if that is going to be a big problem, I think I will be getting my applications back out. I have to find something really soon.
I cashed in most of my remaining cryptocurrency yesterday. No choice. I'll buy back in when I have the money for it. May look further into other coins than the ones I have been holding. Which I was planning on at some point.
There has been a big Establishment move against crypto rising. That was expected. The reaction of skittish people was less expected. There was a huge selloff, driving values down. Oh, well. I do not see it being killed off, no matter how they try. But Wall Street is running scared.
I regained my motivation and started writing and doing videos again. One on antidepressants as so long I broke it in two parts. Mostly because people against stricter gun laws have been trying to divert attention from guns to mental health and medications. Those medications help millions of people. And there are definite reasons they have become so widespread. Failing economy, failing education system, 17 years of war, continuous scare tactics by the media and on and on. Any way, in getting more pieces out for publication, found some settings that had to be revised which explained why I have not made any money at all. It should be more straightforward but companies do what they can to make it difficult to get paid for your work while they make money from your writing. Hoping to start making something from it, if only a little.
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