So, she came over Tue night.
Lately, she had been sitting further away from me, seeming like she was mostly avoiding much direct contact. That happened at the beginning of the night. I was seriously ready to say the words that I was going to start seeing other women. I didn't want to utter the words.
Ultimately, we laid down together, fully clothed. I finally let it be known that it seemed very much like she was no longer attracted to me and was pulling away from me. Told her if that is what she wanted, then I needed to hear it from her. I let her know that my fear of abandonment is a real issue for me and I have been through the process of someone pulling away more than once.
She told me very much that is not what she wants. She said she did not want me to think she only came over here for sex. That is obvious on both sides of this equation. It is by no means all I want from her. Though it's not something I want left out, either.
Looks like we both proved we are still attracted to each other that night. Very much so.
We did talk about spending time together and having our ceremony.
Now that I am working, things will be a bit more difficult, time-wise. My schedule for training seriously sucks. But I am waiting to see how it goes after that. The pay is low, so I have to try and get more hours but balance that with seeing each other.
I may not remain here. Depends on several factors, of course. There is room for advancement and if that happens quickly, I'll be more likely to stay. Otherwise, I will still keep my resume updated and my ears open.
Lately, she had been sitting further away from me, seeming like she was mostly avoiding much direct contact. That happened at the beginning of the night. I was seriously ready to say the words that I was going to start seeing other women. I didn't want to utter the words.
Ultimately, we laid down together, fully clothed. I finally let it be known that it seemed very much like she was no longer attracted to me and was pulling away from me. Told her if that is what she wanted, then I needed to hear it from her. I let her know that my fear of abandonment is a real issue for me and I have been through the process of someone pulling away more than once.
She told me very much that is not what she wants. She said she did not want me to think she only came over here for sex. That is obvious on both sides of this equation. It is by no means all I want from her. Though it's not something I want left out, either.
Looks like we both proved we are still attracted to each other that night. Very much so.
We did talk about spending time together and having our ceremony.
Now that I am working, things will be a bit more difficult, time-wise. My schedule for training seriously sucks. But I am waiting to see how it goes after that. The pay is low, so I have to try and get more hours but balance that with seeing each other.
I may not remain here. Depends on several factors, of course. There is room for advancement and if that happens quickly, I'll be more likely to stay. Otherwise, I will still keep my resume updated and my ears open.
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