Ambivalent

The more gradual approach either hasn't gotten through or my observations are correct.

She has spent a lot of time with me this week. Been here every day. I've said before I love her company, her presence.

However, most of that time has been spent watching shows on Hulu.

She says she is emotionally comfortable being with me. I believe that, it shows. 

Unfortunately, while she is comfortable, she does not seem to be excited to be with me any more. No real signs of that. It seems more like it is turning into a best friend or brother and sister situation more than lovers. 

I'm sure she would have sex with me more if I behaved more aggressively about it. Aggressive as in forcing the issue, putting aside how she feels and demanding it. That's not me. It has to come from both sides or it's no good. 

I don't mind being best friends. It just needs to be defined that way. If that is the case, then I should be free to sleep with anyone I choose without jealousy or harm being done. 

I've been understanding of her anxiety, depression and bouts of illness. Problem is, if that is going to be every day or she is just not really attracted to me in that way, then it should be brought out in the open. If she is waiting for something from me, I'm not sure what it is because she hasn't told me. 

I can't keep running around in these emotional circles. Putting myself aside all the time doesn't work for me any more.