Daughter had Daylight Savings Time Syndrome today. Slept late, did not want to go to the gym.
I did not realize the time change was last night. Usually I am the one reminding other people. Barely anyone mentioned it this weekend, except to post about legislation ending DST in FL. Last night, I was heading to bed just before 2. Told daughter not to stay up too late. She looked at the TV and said, "OMG! It's 3 AM!" I had just looked at the time and it was approaching 2. TV said 3. Got back online to check and found that the time change was indeed for this morning/last night.
I started doing some writing about subjects other than politics. Started writing a series I have considered for several years. Decided with mass shootings and widespread aggression, now was a good time for it. The series is about the male perspective in America today and what shapes it. What can be done about it at the personal level. The first part of the series was about male sensuality. Not sexuality. How our senses, especially touch, affect our health from birth to death. How males are too often denied touch unless it is in the context of violence or sex. Even in sex, it is often limited to specific parts of our bodies. The article can be found here: https://steemit.com/male/@andunityforall/male-sensuality
Guess I have now gone through my stages of grief. I felt the separation forming and that was the reason for my depression a couple weeks ago. Yes, I had some anger. Denial. Closest I came to bargaining was trying to find other things she was interested in, like skating or going to the gym with me. Now I have reached acceptance. Have not ended our relationship but emotionally I would have to be convinced there is one to revive my emotions.
Today I realized all of this and that I am emotionally back where I was when formally single.
Oh, my last post was started on Fri and posted early Sat morning just after MN, so the time stamp is for Sat.
She had said she was going to come over Fri after the doc. I had doubted it but gave it the chance. Told me yesterday she would come over this evening and I did not think it would happen. It didn't. At this point it is looking like she is trying to reserve and then discard my time as though it doesn't matter. Keep me from doing anything else with anyone else.
She says she's been sick from a UTI and then antibiotics. Sleeping on and off all day. Lately I text her and it can take hours to get a reply. That in itself can be a sign she is with someone else. I will say it's not always likely she is with someone else. She texted me a lot on Fri when she did not come over. So it's likely she was telling the truth then. Not sure about today. Maybe just my imagination gone wild. No matter what, I've detailed how I feel.
Maybe she is ill. Still, I'm not giving this much more time. Not being fair to myself any more.
I did not realize the time change was last night. Usually I am the one reminding other people. Barely anyone mentioned it this weekend, except to post about legislation ending DST in FL. Last night, I was heading to bed just before 2. Told daughter not to stay up too late. She looked at the TV and said, "OMG! It's 3 AM!" I had just looked at the time and it was approaching 2. TV said 3. Got back online to check and found that the time change was indeed for this morning/last night.
I started doing some writing about subjects other than politics. Started writing a series I have considered for several years. Decided with mass shootings and widespread aggression, now was a good time for it. The series is about the male perspective in America today and what shapes it. What can be done about it at the personal level. The first part of the series was about male sensuality. Not sexuality. How our senses, especially touch, affect our health from birth to death. How males are too often denied touch unless it is in the context of violence or sex. Even in sex, it is often limited to specific parts of our bodies. The article can be found here: https://steemit.com/male/@andunityforall/male-sensuality
Guess I have now gone through my stages of grief. I felt the separation forming and that was the reason for my depression a couple weeks ago. Yes, I had some anger. Denial. Closest I came to bargaining was trying to find other things she was interested in, like skating or going to the gym with me. Now I have reached acceptance. Have not ended our relationship but emotionally I would have to be convinced there is one to revive my emotions.
Today I realized all of this and that I am emotionally back where I was when formally single.
Oh, my last post was started on Fri and posted early Sat morning just after MN, so the time stamp is for Sat.
She had said she was going to come over Fri after the doc. I had doubted it but gave it the chance. Told me yesterday she would come over this evening and I did not think it would happen. It didn't. At this point it is looking like she is trying to reserve and then discard my time as though it doesn't matter. Keep me from doing anything else with anyone else.
She says she's been sick from a UTI and then antibiotics. Sleeping on and off all day. Lately I text her and it can take hours to get a reply. That in itself can be a sign she is with someone else. I will say it's not always likely she is with someone else. She texted me a lot on Fri when she did not come over. So it's likely she was telling the truth then. Not sure about today. Maybe just my imagination gone wild. No matter what, I've detailed how I feel.
Maybe she is ill. Still, I'm not giving this much more time. Not being fair to myself any more.
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