I arrived at a revelation today.
This afternoon, she told me she is going to start getting up in the morning and going to the gym. Five days a week. I did not say it but that upset me. It hurt. I've wanted more time with her for months and she has been sleeping later and later. Now I get a job and she decides she is going to get up early?
I was thinking about saying something. I still may.
While thinking about it, that was when the revelation came.
She is sabotaging our relationship. Not sure how much of it is intentional. I know at least some of it is absolutely intentional. All the pieces fit into place now.
I have felt she loves me but her behavior in many ways has not reflected that. Like every time she learns I enjoy or look forward to something, she avoids it. I've listed things before, no need to do it again.
I've seen this before. The sabotaging of a relationship. It means she is not afraid of our relationship failing. She is afraid of it succeeding.
So, I am torn about whether to discuss this. Mostly it comes down to whether anything changes for the better now that I am working. If it does not, then I will have to discuss it in plain language. Maybe I should, any way. Ask her outright where she really wants this relationship to go.
This afternoon, she told me she is going to start getting up in the morning and going to the gym. Five days a week. I did not say it but that upset me. It hurt. I've wanted more time with her for months and she has been sleeping later and later. Now I get a job and she decides she is going to get up early?
I was thinking about saying something. I still may.
While thinking about it, that was when the revelation came.
She is sabotaging our relationship. Not sure how much of it is intentional. I know at least some of it is absolutely intentional. All the pieces fit into place now.
I have felt she loves me but her behavior in many ways has not reflected that. Like every time she learns I enjoy or look forward to something, she avoids it. I've listed things before, no need to do it again.
I've seen this before. The sabotaging of a relationship. It means she is not afraid of our relationship failing. She is afraid of it succeeding.
So, I am torn about whether to discuss this. Mostly it comes down to whether anything changes for the better now that I am working. If it does not, then I will have to discuss it in plain language. Maybe I should, any way. Ask her outright where she really wants this relationship to go.
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