My gf came over today.
I have to note here it gets old not using people's names in my blogs for various reasons. I never view anyone as a possession. My daughter. My gf. Doing this is not my own choice.
Any way, we spent a few hours together and I always feel better when I have time with her.
However, something definitely feels off. I'm not sure what it is. Yes, she has been sick. She had a scratchy throat when she got here. She was sweating slightly. Oh, well. That should make it better when she gets home and her husband thought she was at aerial yoga.
On that, I should feel guilty. She skipped her class to be with me and it's not the first time.
But it still feels off in some way. I cannot avoid that feeling. My intuition is never wrong. Never. Though I also know trying to force it will not work. All I can do is be patient and wait for whatever it is to pass or reveal itself. Trying to force it makes it worse or results in temporary deception.
I am wondering if she is seeing someone else. Perhaps not sleeping with them. Yet. But I am wondering if that is the case. I definitely feel like there is some other energy involved here that I am unaware of.
Hope to hell I'm not being a fool again. Guess I should be used to it by now.
I have to note here it gets old not using people's names in my blogs for various reasons. I never view anyone as a possession. My daughter. My gf. Doing this is not my own choice.
Any way, we spent a few hours together and I always feel better when I have time with her.
However, something definitely feels off. I'm not sure what it is. Yes, she has been sick. She had a scratchy throat when she got here. She was sweating slightly. Oh, well. That should make it better when she gets home and her husband thought she was at aerial yoga.
On that, I should feel guilty. She skipped her class to be with me and it's not the first time.
But it still feels off in some way. I cannot avoid that feeling. My intuition is never wrong. Never. Though I also know trying to force it will not work. All I can do is be patient and wait for whatever it is to pass or reveal itself. Trying to force it makes it worse or results in temporary deception.
I am wondering if she is seeing someone else. Perhaps not sleeping with them. Yet. But I am wondering if that is the case. I definitely feel like there is some other energy involved here that I am unaware of.
Hope to hell I'm not being a fool again. Guess I should be used to it by now.
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