Went to the interview yesterday and it seemed to have gone well. After the interview, the lead nurse showed me around, which seems like something she does not always do. She said they had more interviews but basically welcomed me on board. So it's sounding rather hopeful.
I'm coming out of depressive mode slowly. The job interview helped a little.
Also helped some that my gf came over last night for a while.
On the other hand, that is causing some levels of anxiety and depression in itself. I've said how I get little of her time. That hasn't changed and will become less and less in coming weeks. She is starting more classes and I will have to start working.
Going to be honest. Sensually, I prefer having occasional times that encounters last for numerous hours. Especially when BDSM is involved. We've discussed that and she has brought things over related to it but none have been used. They're just toys in the closet. Never enough time to play with them.
Maybe I'm being selfish but between depressive mode and failed expectations, my libido is dropping. Physically. Emotionally, I still have an urge for more consistent company and sensuality.
Oh, well. It will be good if I start working and get the hell out of the apartment more. Only things I've been leaving here for is taking daughter skating, going to the gym and shopping.
Later- Was just chatting with her and told her about the discussion group I am going to tonight. Montgomery Freethinkers. She became upset and seemed like she does not want me to go. I went through a 10 year relationship where I could have no friends. I cannot do that again. I don't know anyone here. I have not been working outside of the house. I am isolated more than I have ever been.
Oh, well. On to other subjects.
Been making really good progress at the gym. More than I had thought. Put on my baseball jersey and the biceps are snug, which they were not before. Doing maximum weight on the bicep machine several times a week.
Doing max on pec fly several times a week. Can see results in the mirror.
Started doing standing squats to build up my gluteal muscles. Looked in the mirror not long ago and saw my butt is sagging. I don't have a butt! I am famous for not having a butt! How can my butt be sagging when I don't have one?!!! Guess it's time to develop a butt so it doesn't sag. But the standing squats are doing wonders for core stability, too.
My "love handles" are almost gone. I doubt I will ever have a six pack but abs are visibly stronger. Not sure I want a six pack because that entails low body fat and sometimes a level of dehydration. No thanks!
In any case, I will have to start buying some new clothes if the near future. Old clothes are pretty worn out, so it's good timing. Other clothes are not well suited to the weather here. Buy a few new shirts once I know I have a job.
I'm coming out of depressive mode slowly. The job interview helped a little.
Also helped some that my gf came over last night for a while.
On the other hand, that is causing some levels of anxiety and depression in itself. I've said how I get little of her time. That hasn't changed and will become less and less in coming weeks. She is starting more classes and I will have to start working.
Going to be honest. Sensually, I prefer having occasional times that encounters last for numerous hours. Especially when BDSM is involved. We've discussed that and she has brought things over related to it but none have been used. They're just toys in the closet. Never enough time to play with them.
Maybe I'm being selfish but between depressive mode and failed expectations, my libido is dropping. Physically. Emotionally, I still have an urge for more consistent company and sensuality.
Oh, well. It will be good if I start working and get the hell out of the apartment more. Only things I've been leaving here for is taking daughter skating, going to the gym and shopping.
Later- Was just chatting with her and told her about the discussion group I am going to tonight. Montgomery Freethinkers. She became upset and seemed like she does not want me to go. I went through a 10 year relationship where I could have no friends. I cannot do that again. I don't know anyone here. I have not been working outside of the house. I am isolated more than I have ever been.
Oh, well. On to other subjects.
Been making really good progress at the gym. More than I had thought. Put on my baseball jersey and the biceps are snug, which they were not before. Doing maximum weight on the bicep machine several times a week.
Doing max on pec fly several times a week. Can see results in the mirror.
Started doing standing squats to build up my gluteal muscles. Looked in the mirror not long ago and saw my butt is sagging. I don't have a butt! I am famous for not having a butt! How can my butt be sagging when I don't have one?!!! Guess it's time to develop a butt so it doesn't sag. But the standing squats are doing wonders for core stability, too.
My "love handles" are almost gone. I doubt I will ever have a six pack but abs are visibly stronger. Not sure I want a six pack because that entails low body fat and sometimes a level of dehydration. No thanks!
In any case, I will have to start buying some new clothes if the near future. Old clothes are pretty worn out, so it's good timing. Other clothes are not well suited to the weather here. Buy a few new shirts once I know I have a job.
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