It's after 3 AM and I am awake. I got tired, laid down. Not sure if I fell asleep and woke up or just never fell asleep.
Sore muscles and had to use the bathroom. Vagal reaction. After using the bathroom, took some Tylenol and some Epsom salt. See if that helps.
That does not explain Fri night or being completely awake and lucid for 41 hours. Even if awake for long hours, I'm usually really tired after maybe 30 hours. This has gotten strange. Can my bipolar issue be getting worse at this age? I'd think it should be slowing down.
Oh, I took more Valerian root also, Maybe that will help me fall asleep. I hope.
Kind of wondering if doing the pelvic/gluteal exercises could be causing constipation/bowel habit problems.
I need more sex. Can no longer deny it. I need it both emotionally and physically. It helps keep me in balance.
Exercise alone is not doing it. Probably could to some point if I could go to the gym twice a day some days. But I've done that before and know it kicks off a cycle where it send me into a manic state plus wears me out for a while, then increases my endurance and wakes me up even more, so insomnia gets even worse. That cycle would continue until I burned up all my body's resources. Then I start losing weight including muscle.
I'm not really sure why sex helps me but it does. It changes my brain chemistry and keeps it more stable. It calms my nerves. Definitely helps me sleep, if I get enough sex. (Which can be difficult for me at times.) I know I am not alone in this by any stretch of the imagination. It is not all psychological. It's odd that many people with manic conditions often have sexual addictions and may engage in risky behaviors because of it. Why? Because it helps offset that condition and calm down.
People with organic depressive disorders desire less sex, even though it would probably cheer them up. So the question becomes why?
Ugh. Rationalizing. Not a question it's a cycle which I had broken for over 8 years. Now I am back in that cycle. Then again I have no garden, no job, nothing else to use to wear me out at the moment. I need sex AND a job AND exercise AND studies or intellectual diversions. And sleep. Going to try again.
Sore muscles and had to use the bathroom. Vagal reaction. After using the bathroom, took some Tylenol and some Epsom salt. See if that helps.
That does not explain Fri night or being completely awake and lucid for 41 hours. Even if awake for long hours, I'm usually really tired after maybe 30 hours. This has gotten strange. Can my bipolar issue be getting worse at this age? I'd think it should be slowing down.
Oh, I took more Valerian root also, Maybe that will help me fall asleep. I hope.
Kind of wondering if doing the pelvic/gluteal exercises could be causing constipation/bowel habit problems.
I need more sex. Can no longer deny it. I need it both emotionally and physically. It helps keep me in balance.
Exercise alone is not doing it. Probably could to some point if I could go to the gym twice a day some days. But I've done that before and know it kicks off a cycle where it send me into a manic state plus wears me out for a while, then increases my endurance and wakes me up even more, so insomnia gets even worse. That cycle would continue until I burned up all my body's resources. Then I start losing weight including muscle.
I'm not really sure why sex helps me but it does. It changes my brain chemistry and keeps it more stable. It calms my nerves. Definitely helps me sleep, if I get enough sex. (Which can be difficult for me at times.) I know I am not alone in this by any stretch of the imagination. It is not all psychological. It's odd that many people with manic conditions often have sexual addictions and may engage in risky behaviors because of it. Why? Because it helps offset that condition and calm down.
People with organic depressive disorders desire less sex, even though it would probably cheer them up. So the question becomes why?
Ugh. Rationalizing. Not a question it's a cycle which I had broken for over 8 years. Now I am back in that cycle. Then again I have no garden, no job, nothing else to use to wear me out at the moment. I need sex AND a job AND exercise AND studies or intellectual diversions. And sleep. Going to try again.
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