Well, I am back on the hunt for a job. Had one interview and that one decided not to hire me before I even got home. I suspect there was a strange element of racism there. The woman that interviewed me was white but all the employees were black. Seemed like she wants everyone under her to be black. May have also been an element of fear because I have managerial and a lot of medical experience. She may have been in fear I would wind up replacing her. (Which likely means she will be replaced in the near future.)
Had an interview with Genesis lined up for this morning but canceled it. They only have evening shift, full time, 5 days a week available and require every other weekend. None of that works out with my daughter or gf.
Checked back with the other plasma place this morning to make sure they received my resume. They had but had not reviewed it. Supposedly reviewing it today but have heard nothing back yet.
Going to check back on the prison job.
Not that many LPN positions including agency here. Plus pay is lower than NM. That's okay, for the most part cost of living is actually lower.
Not sure what is going on with the gf. She has been sick But that's not all that's happening and I know it. I get very little time with her. Not much sex. Lots of talk but even talk has slowed down. A lot. She says she can't manage to get out of the house much without arousing suspicion. The ultimate result is that I am alone and mostly celibate. We never did have our ceremony.
Honestly, I cannot be sure she is not talking to or sleeping with other men.
So I reserve time to be with her which doesn't happen. I spend all my time alone. Can't be in public with her. Not much sex. Hell, I cannot even give her any overtly romantic gifts. Can rarely speak on the phone. So I am questioning this arrangement. I love her very much, more than anyone I have ever known. That hasn't changed. I'm just not feeling very secure here again. Nothing abnormal about that.
Had an interview with Genesis lined up for this morning but canceled it. They only have evening shift, full time, 5 days a week available and require every other weekend. None of that works out with my daughter or gf.
Checked back with the other plasma place this morning to make sure they received my resume. They had but had not reviewed it. Supposedly reviewing it today but have heard nothing back yet.
Going to check back on the prison job.
Not that many LPN positions including agency here. Plus pay is lower than NM. That's okay, for the most part cost of living is actually lower.
Not sure what is going on with the gf. She has been sick But that's not all that's happening and I know it. I get very little time with her. Not much sex. Lots of talk but even talk has slowed down. A lot. She says she can't manage to get out of the house much without arousing suspicion. The ultimate result is that I am alone and mostly celibate. We never did have our ceremony.
Honestly, I cannot be sure she is not talking to or sleeping with other men.
So I reserve time to be with her which doesn't happen. I spend all my time alone. Can't be in public with her. Not much sex. Hell, I cannot even give her any overtly romantic gifts. Can rarely speak on the phone. So I am questioning this arrangement. I love her very much, more than anyone I have ever known. That hasn't changed. I'm just not feeling very secure here again. Nothing abnormal about that.
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