The Chantix is helping quite a bit now. I smoked 5 cigarettes yesterday. About that many today. That's 1/4 what I was smoking only a few days ago.
I will not claim I am not going through any withdrawal. It is more gradual than without Chantix. I know well from experience. That's because of the gradual increasing dosage. The way it claims to work (and I believe so far is accurate) is to block nicotine receptors. Not as a replacement but to actually block nicotine's effects on the brain.
There are other effects from cigarettes to overcome. Some of those can have less severe but still noticeable mental effects. However, they are also more short lived.
Think I should completely stop smoking sometime this week.
Daughter and I didn't do a whole lot this weekend. Went shopping. Big thing to her was going to Petsmart. She loves to go there and just look at all the animals. However, she wanted to get tags and collars for our dogs. She picked some fairly expensive tags but said she would pay for them with money she had saved up.
I paid for the tags. I did take part of her money. Let her keep some of it because Valentine's Day is coming up and because I'm not going to take all her money. Main point was not the money but the lesson of not everything being just handed to her. To be responsible with money and sure she wants something before buying it. What she does not know is that I will do this now and in the future in such cases. Then place the money in a special place and give it back to her all at once later, like when she has a car or goes to college.
We also went swimming today. Got one of her favorite take-home meals for dinner last night and watched a couple of movies.
I have been considering dating again. However, not much in my mind is really in favor of it. I'm not very trusting any more. Not intensely dependent and not tolerant of dependence. Of course, apprehensive about my appearance due to my teeth. May be hypocritical but seriously not interested in having children living with me. Afraid of the impact on my daughter.
Besides, I do want to go a number of places and take my daughter along. Just us. Grand Canyon. Back to Disney World at least once more. Hiking in the mountains. Colorado Springs. Sight seeing drives all over. If I don't involve anyone else, then nobody else can introduce conflict and drama.
I've also made it clear I will never again become emotionally bound to anyone without taking serious time in developing and assessing the relationship.
So it really is my best choice to start getting out and socializing again. Make some friends.
I will not claim I am not going through any withdrawal. It is more gradual than without Chantix. I know well from experience. That's because of the gradual increasing dosage. The way it claims to work (and I believe so far is accurate) is to block nicotine receptors. Not as a replacement but to actually block nicotine's effects on the brain.
There are other effects from cigarettes to overcome. Some of those can have less severe but still noticeable mental effects. However, they are also more short lived.
Think I should completely stop smoking sometime this week.
Daughter and I didn't do a whole lot this weekend. Went shopping. Big thing to her was going to Petsmart. She loves to go there and just look at all the animals. However, she wanted to get tags and collars for our dogs. She picked some fairly expensive tags but said she would pay for them with money she had saved up.
I paid for the tags. I did take part of her money. Let her keep some of it because Valentine's Day is coming up and because I'm not going to take all her money. Main point was not the money but the lesson of not everything being just handed to her. To be responsible with money and sure she wants something before buying it. What she does not know is that I will do this now and in the future in such cases. Then place the money in a special place and give it back to her all at once later, like when she has a car or goes to college.
We also went swimming today. Got one of her favorite take-home meals for dinner last night and watched a couple of movies.
I have been considering dating again. However, not much in my mind is really in favor of it. I'm not very trusting any more. Not intensely dependent and not tolerant of dependence. Of course, apprehensive about my appearance due to my teeth. May be hypocritical but seriously not interested in having children living with me. Afraid of the impact on my daughter.
Besides, I do want to go a number of places and take my daughter along. Just us. Grand Canyon. Back to Disney World at least once more. Hiking in the mountains. Colorado Springs. Sight seeing drives all over. If I don't involve anyone else, then nobody else can introduce conflict and drama.
I've also made it clear I will never again become emotionally bound to anyone without taking serious time in developing and assessing the relationship.
So it really is my best choice to start getting out and socializing again. Make some friends.
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