Update

So, after last writing, she came by that evening. Around 9 PM. Came in and said she could not stay long.

I'm not unreasonable. I knew she would not be able to stay long. 

I felt much better that she did come by. She said she could tell I was down from not seeing her. Which was very true. 

Fri she was going to come by but had health issues. Tinnitus and not feeling well. Found out her blood pressure was up. Too much salt on Thur and had fluid retention. I advised her what to do. 

I'm not unreasonable. Do not want her health at risk to see me. 

The question becomes obvious. When do I reach the point that I am being too reasonable? Too understanding?

She said she will try and arrange for us to have more time together this coming week. Honestly, I need that. 

I cannot and will not pull away from her emotionally. I feel too much for her. I am not going to start seeing other women. Yet. 

But this week is going to be make or break on that. If I do not have more time with her, then I have to take steps to protect myself emotionally. I will start seeing other women as friends with benefits. I will tell her I am going to do so. 

Maybe that's exactly what I need to do. I do not play games but maybe she feels too secure that I will not see other women. In other words, there's nothing for her to lose. 

Honestly, if I started seeing other women, she would not lose me. Just share me.