She did show up last night shortly after my last writing. Could not help being late.
We had an amazing evening. Talked a lot, including talking more online after she left here.
I know, I was being emotionally impulsive. Part of that is because of my own past. I've just gotten to an emotional point where I have good reason to have apprehension. Takes time for me to get past the apprehension stage.
I have a lot of things to do this week. Need to finish working on the van before winter. Go through boxes. Got the computer cable yesterday, so I need to finish rebuilding the main computer. Then try doing video on that one for YouTube.
For a while, I have been having pretty bad brain fog in the morning. It got worse as the Candidiasis resolved. Then I realized the medications I am taking were absorbing into my system a lot more effectively. One of the medications I have been taking is an anti-depressant. I figured if any of the medications were causing it, that would be the one. I can take the antispasmodic during the day and it causes no such problem. So last night I skipped the Trazodone. This morning, very little brain fog. I got to sleep okay last night but did not sleep as long.
Truly sucks, I can never sleep for a long time any more unless I'm sick.
My body is slowly adjusting to having less inflammation. That sounds like it would be a good thing but not entirely. Systemic painless inflammation acts like a cushion. So small aches and pains become more pronounced once it's gone. Just a matter of reaching a different homeostasis, which does take time. Plus my body is repairing damage. Even rebuilding blood vessels and repairing intestinal damage. Even I am not completely certain what other damage is being repaired.
One bad thing is that my face has thinned out. Hope that corrects itself a bit. Makes me look older. Got some self tanning lotion, which may help with that. Main reason I got that was that I was looking pale. Not working on the garden any more, so not spending time outside. If I am going to do a YouTube channel, I don't want to look sickly.
Still early. Watch a few videos, do some reading and then get some things done. I actually feel like getting some things done!
We had an amazing evening. Talked a lot, including talking more online after she left here.
I know, I was being emotionally impulsive. Part of that is because of my own past. I've just gotten to an emotional point where I have good reason to have apprehension. Takes time for me to get past the apprehension stage.
I have a lot of things to do this week. Need to finish working on the van before winter. Go through boxes. Got the computer cable yesterday, so I need to finish rebuilding the main computer. Then try doing video on that one for YouTube.
For a while, I have been having pretty bad brain fog in the morning. It got worse as the Candidiasis resolved. Then I realized the medications I am taking were absorbing into my system a lot more effectively. One of the medications I have been taking is an anti-depressant. I figured if any of the medications were causing it, that would be the one. I can take the antispasmodic during the day and it causes no such problem. So last night I skipped the Trazodone. This morning, very little brain fog. I got to sleep okay last night but did not sleep as long.
Truly sucks, I can never sleep for a long time any more unless I'm sick.
My body is slowly adjusting to having less inflammation. That sounds like it would be a good thing but not entirely. Systemic painless inflammation acts like a cushion. So small aches and pains become more pronounced once it's gone. Just a matter of reaching a different homeostasis, which does take time. Plus my body is repairing damage. Even rebuilding blood vessels and repairing intestinal damage. Even I am not completely certain what other damage is being repaired.
One bad thing is that my face has thinned out. Hope that corrects itself a bit. Makes me look older. Got some self tanning lotion, which may help with that. Main reason I got that was that I was looking pale. Not working on the garden any more, so not spending time outside. If I am going to do a YouTube channel, I don't want to look sickly.
Still early. Watch a few videos, do some reading and then get some things done. I actually feel like getting some things done!
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