No. I cannot bring myself to see other women at this point.
That may sound crazy. Just how I feel. I know I am probably setting myself up for an emotional fall but maybe it's worth it.
For the moment, I am taking it the other direction. Upping the ante. Sensually and emotionally. The more I am around her, the more possessive I feel. Not in a jealous way. Not in the traditional sense. Not sure exactly how to explain it.
I love the way she feels in my arms. How she smells. Just how I feel when I am with her.
Have I lost my sanity?
She has agreed to be my submissive. But she did not expect exactly what that would entail. I dominate in a way that few, if any men do. Like bringing her pleasure but denying intercourse, even when I wanted to. It takes self discipline. But I even explained it makes her think about me more. It intensifies the next time we do have sex. I want her to need me, want me more than any man she has ever known.
Explaining it does not decrease the effect. In fact, the opposite. It is absolutely not a rejection but attaining something deeper. She understands it.
I have a feeling that no matter where this goes, we will gain a bond that will last many years, possibly for life. That's big for me. And just what I want with her. Something that goes beyond the physical.
That may sound crazy. Just how I feel. I know I am probably setting myself up for an emotional fall but maybe it's worth it.
For the moment, I am taking it the other direction. Upping the ante. Sensually and emotionally. The more I am around her, the more possessive I feel. Not in a jealous way. Not in the traditional sense. Not sure exactly how to explain it.
I love the way she feels in my arms. How she smells. Just how I feel when I am with her.
Have I lost my sanity?
She has agreed to be my submissive. But she did not expect exactly what that would entail. I dominate in a way that few, if any men do. Like bringing her pleasure but denying intercourse, even when I wanted to. It takes self discipline. But I even explained it makes her think about me more. It intensifies the next time we do have sex. I want her to need me, want me more than any man she has ever known.
Explaining it does not decrease the effect. In fact, the opposite. It is absolutely not a rejection but attaining something deeper. She understands it.
I have a feeling that no matter where this goes, we will gain a bond that will last many years, possibly for life. That's big for me. And just what I want with her. Something that goes beyond the physical.
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