I'm still in a depressive cycle. This is the worst one I've had in many years. This one includes physical pain, which has happened no small number of times in the distant past. Really hard to get motivated.
GF came by Mon and Tue. For various reasons, no sex. I could have been more assertive but tend not to be when in a down cycle. But she did not ask, basically told me on Mon. Tue she injured herself.
I work tomorrow morning at a different facility. The women's prison psych unit. Hmm. Not sure how to feel about the psych unit yet. In any case, I have more shifts coming up than I have had this past month at my base facility. Because they're losing people right and left. Including the ADON. But between that and orienting to other facilities, I will be getting more hours, it would appear. My income will increase and stabilize.
On the other hand, it will mean less time open for gf and I. Plus she is taking more classes. Not much free time together any more. Not like it was utilized much any way. Except to watch Netflix or Hulu. Seriously, it's not seeming like she minds. Maybe she doesn't. She definitely doesn't mind lack of sex.
So, mind is made up. I am going to check out the 24 hour places in town. Of course, it's most likely I'll run into nothing but barflies. Unlikely to find much lucid conversation. Just something to pass time until I find or create something more to my liking. Like maybe a Progressive conversation group. Maybe. Or maybe start taking some classes or something. Not sure.
GF came by Mon and Tue. For various reasons, no sex. I could have been more assertive but tend not to be when in a down cycle. But she did not ask, basically told me on Mon. Tue she injured herself.
I work tomorrow morning at a different facility. The women's prison psych unit. Hmm. Not sure how to feel about the psych unit yet. In any case, I have more shifts coming up than I have had this past month at my base facility. Because they're losing people right and left. Including the ADON. But between that and orienting to other facilities, I will be getting more hours, it would appear. My income will increase and stabilize.
On the other hand, it will mean less time open for gf and I. Plus she is taking more classes. Not much free time together any more. Not like it was utilized much any way. Except to watch Netflix or Hulu. Seriously, it's not seeming like she minds. Maybe she doesn't. She definitely doesn't mind lack of sex.
So, mind is made up. I am going to check out the 24 hour places in town. Of course, it's most likely I'll run into nothing but barflies. Unlikely to find much lucid conversation. Just something to pass time until I find or create something more to my liking. Like maybe a Progressive conversation group. Maybe. Or maybe start taking some classes or something. Not sure.
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