Saturday, July 14, 2018

It's all clear

GF texted me today to say she understand how I have felt for weeks. Because she is depressed and lonely.

Basically, if I am depressed, she is more depressed. 

She said something sexually suggestive and then said she's a bad girl. I said "Maybe someday bad enough for chains." She replied "lol good". Then changed the subject immediately to her blood sugar.

It's unquestionable. I have become a nurse, a cook, a masseur and a Netflix buddy. There's nothing that tilts the balance in the direction of my wants and needs. 

So I care about her and she cares about her. This is familiar territory because I've been here several times. 

If I am going to be left as the only one that thinks about my concerns, then that is exactly what I am going to do. Not trying to do anything else any more. 

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