Have to leave for a morning shift in a few minutes, so keeping this one short.
I mentioned that my gf made the assumption the other day that I did not want to have sex. At least, she pushed it off on me. This being allegedly because I am in a depressive cycle. No, that does not mean I am not interested. In fact, it helps my depression. The only difference is that I am less assertive. It was during my last down cycle that I allowed my more submissive side to come out, which is something I have never before done in my life.
None of that apparently matters. Obviously I am not allowed to have a down cycle. Obviously she wants to avoid intimacy and put it off on me.
Yes, it angers me. It hurts me.
I have genuinely gotten tired of being understanding. I understand her knee injury and bumping her head currently. I have been understanding through schedule problems, family illnesses and deaths, UTI, pneumonia, shoulder injury, leg injury, wrist injury, previous head injury, her depressive cycles (which has seemed to be continuous since Dec or Jan) and on and on. Not a week passes that I do not have to be understanding about something.
It's old now.
I'll write more after work. This was just on my mind.
I mentioned that my gf made the assumption the other day that I did not want to have sex. At least, she pushed it off on me. This being allegedly because I am in a depressive cycle. No, that does not mean I am not interested. In fact, it helps my depression. The only difference is that I am less assertive. It was during my last down cycle that I allowed my more submissive side to come out, which is something I have never before done in my life.
None of that apparently matters. Obviously I am not allowed to have a down cycle. Obviously she wants to avoid intimacy and put it off on me.
Yes, it angers me. It hurts me.
I have genuinely gotten tired of being understanding. I understand her knee injury and bumping her head currently. I have been understanding through schedule problems, family illnesses and deaths, UTI, pneumonia, shoulder injury, leg injury, wrist injury, previous head injury, her depressive cycles (which has seemed to be continuous since Dec or Jan) and on and on. Not a week passes that I do not have to be understanding about something.
It's old now.
I'll write more after work. This was just on my mind.
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