Daughter and I made sweet rolls today. Orange and cheese. I made them low sugar. Not no sugar and definitely not low calorie. GF is diabetic and everyone is on a diet. They came out good. Used pure sucralose instead of sugar for the most part. I did use some sugar so the dough would rise well.
Daughter liked the cheese danish a lot more than I thought she would. I expected her to like the orange ones best. But I made the cheese ones in my own way. The filling has pineapple, orange juice and vanilla. Not your typical cheese danish.
GF has had a bad week from what she has told me. Step brother died. Cousin in hospital for triple bypass.
So I have only seen her once this week. Though this does all raise questions. None of this has been posted publicly. For all I know she could be out of town right now. For all I know none of this is true. She had promised we would have more time together during the holidays. Not so much. She said she is going out of town on 12/30.
She was suggesting but not promising she would come over on Christmas. I hope so.
I have made myself available to her basically 24/7 this week. Keeping phone by the bed. She texted me one night. We've talked a bit online. Still says she misses me and would like more time with me. It doesn't happen, though. I do care about what she is going through.
If all is true, I want to be here for her and it drives me crazy not being able to be able to support her more.
As is obvious, not closing my mind to the questions.
Maybe I'm just a selfish and distrusting person who does not belong in a relationship. Maybe I question too much. Not sure. The one thing I do know is that I cannot silence the questions in my mind. Dedicate my heart, mind, time, fidelity or regain my freedom? Have to wait and see.
It's not a question. If all is as it seems she is the perfect woman.
I want love, romance, honesty, dedication, monogamy, sensual and emotional intensity and intelligent long conversations plus a lot more. I want those things with her. I just have to know they are real beyond all doubt.
Daughter liked the cheese danish a lot more than I thought she would. I expected her to like the orange ones best. But I made the cheese ones in my own way. The filling has pineapple, orange juice and vanilla. Not your typical cheese danish.
GF has had a bad week from what she has told me. Step brother died. Cousin in hospital for triple bypass.
So I have only seen her once this week. Though this does all raise questions. None of this has been posted publicly. For all I know she could be out of town right now. For all I know none of this is true. She had promised we would have more time together during the holidays. Not so much. She said she is going out of town on 12/30.
She was suggesting but not promising she would come over on Christmas. I hope so.
I have made myself available to her basically 24/7 this week. Keeping phone by the bed. She texted me one night. We've talked a bit online. Still says she misses me and would like more time with me. It doesn't happen, though. I do care about what she is going through.
If all is true, I want to be here for her and it drives me crazy not being able to be able to support her more.
As is obvious, not closing my mind to the questions.
Maybe I'm just a selfish and distrusting person who does not belong in a relationship. Maybe I question too much. Not sure. The one thing I do know is that I cannot silence the questions in my mind. Dedicate my heart, mind, time, fidelity or regain my freedom? Have to wait and see.
It's not a question. If all is as it seems she is the perfect woman.
I want love, romance, honesty, dedication, monogamy, sensual and emotional intensity and intelligent long conversations plus a lot more. I want those things with her. I just have to know they are real beyond all doubt.
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