So, after finally getting my head on straight, I have committed myself entirely to this relationship.
I told her that I would indeed like to perform the handbinding ceremony in early January. At the beginning of the year, not the end. I consider it symbolic. It is a beginning. Between now and then, I will be planning and writing vows. I already started on those.
She had to have an invasive medical test today. She was nervous about it. Wish I could have been there but could not for obvious reasons. I was happy when she texted me after it was over. It involved anesthesia and an internal biopsy, while she is on blood thinners. So there was some risk. I know how to handle and monitor any effects from those risks but if I cannot be there..
None of this means I am not anxious. Guess if I were not anxious that would just mean it did not mean as much to me. So is she and I know it. Both of us are working through that anxiety together.
And none of that means I'm not horny as hell because I am. But I only get that way when my emotions are there.
Been seeing decent gains on my crypto investments. Wish I had put more of my investments into that. Seeing more modest gains on Forex investments. I may sell some of that off and move it to crypto. Need to do more research and learn about the smaller coins. I've more than doubled my money in the last month that I have invested. Made some dumb moves because I could have made a hell of a lot more if I had waited until the following morning. Oh, well. Live and learn. No use crying about it, I made a profit.
Tomorrow I'm going to do the research and start mining less intensive cryptos. If it shows promise, I'll move use that money and buy hardware to expand and mine more.
My YouTube channel is off to a slow start. I may have to go ahead and start a website, which I intend to do any way. It will be a venue to publish and share Progressive articles and videos. Have to use some of the money I've earned for that purpose.
My job application is moving forward. Had to get a new chest xray this week. That's done. Have to go pee in a bottle tomorrow or Fri. There is a lag on payment with this company, so I'm glad I'm where I'm at financially. Most of my life I could not have dealt with that lag. Once I get going, seems like it could be really good.
I told her that I would indeed like to perform the handbinding ceremony in early January. At the beginning of the year, not the end. I consider it symbolic. It is a beginning. Between now and then, I will be planning and writing vows. I already started on those.
She had to have an invasive medical test today. She was nervous about it. Wish I could have been there but could not for obvious reasons. I was happy when she texted me after it was over. It involved anesthesia and an internal biopsy, while she is on blood thinners. So there was some risk. I know how to handle and monitor any effects from those risks but if I cannot be there..
None of this means I am not anxious. Guess if I were not anxious that would just mean it did not mean as much to me. So is she and I know it. Both of us are working through that anxiety together.
And none of that means I'm not horny as hell because I am. But I only get that way when my emotions are there.
Been seeing decent gains on my crypto investments. Wish I had put more of my investments into that. Seeing more modest gains on Forex investments. I may sell some of that off and move it to crypto. Need to do more research and learn about the smaller coins. I've more than doubled my money in the last month that I have invested. Made some dumb moves because I could have made a hell of a lot more if I had waited until the following morning. Oh, well. Live and learn. No use crying about it, I made a profit.
Tomorrow I'm going to do the research and start mining less intensive cryptos. If it shows promise, I'll move use that money and buy hardware to expand and mine more.
My YouTube channel is off to a slow start. I may have to go ahead and start a website, which I intend to do any way. It will be a venue to publish and share Progressive articles and videos. Have to use some of the money I've earned for that purpose.
My job application is moving forward. Had to get a new chest xray this week. That's done. Have to go pee in a bottle tomorrow or Fri. There is a lag on payment with this company, so I'm glad I'm where I'm at financially. Most of my life I could not have dealt with that lag. Once I get going, seems like it could be really good.
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