Karma seems to be teaching me a lesson lately.
Patience. Something I've never been all that good at.
Think karma has been trying to teach me this lesson for a while and I have not been paying attention.
First and most importantly in my relationship. Patience in this situation is mandatory. Cannot be avoided. This is what began the realization that I lack patience and need to rein in my compulsion. I'm glad I did.
Second most obvious is with cryptocurrency. This is what led to me realizing that this is a karmic lesson. Not long ago, I sold off 1/3 of a Bitcoin at a profit. I expected it to dip further afterward. Which did not happen. I put some of my money back in and bought 1/10 of a Bitcoin, which has risen dramatically since then. If I had waited, my profit would have been much greater. Past couple of days I have considered selling that to invest in another crypto. Instead, I will let it sit and see what happens as it keeps rising. I do not expect it to drop very much now but keep rising in a staircase fashion. I have invested in other cryptos which I expect to increase in value. Just more slowly than Bitcoin is at the moment. But Bitcoin took years to reach the current value. If I do not start working in the near future, I will be forced to cash in some of the cryptocurrency. I am trying to wait until after the holidays, when I expect all of them to rise rapidly.
Less obvious over the past year and more is my relationship with my daughter. Having to be apart from her for so long. That was the first lesson in the series. That was difficult. For a while she told me she did not feel we had ever really bonded as father and daughter. That hurt but I assured her I felt otherwise and that I would be moving to be near her. Since I got here, she has seemed happy I am here.
Then there was the selling of the house. I covered that one enough before.
Currently also is my job search. I am being patient on this, trying to find a job I will enjoy. I have applied for several but with no result, in one case because I turned it down. I think the job I am applying for now would be very good and fitting with my abilities if I get the job. It would be helping people maintain their health and avoid winding up back in the hospital, as many have been recently discharged.
All of these cases involve me waiting, not giving in to fear. Taking a risk. I have to stop being as defensive as I have been. Let my guard down. I'm NOT good at that. But it's a lesson that I must learn. That's a scary lesson for me.
Patience. Something I've never been all that good at.
Think karma has been trying to teach me this lesson for a while and I have not been paying attention.
First and most importantly in my relationship. Patience in this situation is mandatory. Cannot be avoided. This is what began the realization that I lack patience and need to rein in my compulsion. I'm glad I did.
Second most obvious is with cryptocurrency. This is what led to me realizing that this is a karmic lesson. Not long ago, I sold off 1/3 of a Bitcoin at a profit. I expected it to dip further afterward. Which did not happen. I put some of my money back in and bought 1/10 of a Bitcoin, which has risen dramatically since then. If I had waited, my profit would have been much greater. Past couple of days I have considered selling that to invest in another crypto. Instead, I will let it sit and see what happens as it keeps rising. I do not expect it to drop very much now but keep rising in a staircase fashion. I have invested in other cryptos which I expect to increase in value. Just more slowly than Bitcoin is at the moment. But Bitcoin took years to reach the current value. If I do not start working in the near future, I will be forced to cash in some of the cryptocurrency. I am trying to wait until after the holidays, when I expect all of them to rise rapidly.
Less obvious over the past year and more is my relationship with my daughter. Having to be apart from her for so long. That was the first lesson in the series. That was difficult. For a while she told me she did not feel we had ever really bonded as father and daughter. That hurt but I assured her I felt otherwise and that I would be moving to be near her. Since I got here, she has seemed happy I am here.
Then there was the selling of the house. I covered that one enough before.
Currently also is my job search. I am being patient on this, trying to find a job I will enjoy. I have applied for several but with no result, in one case because I turned it down. I think the job I am applying for now would be very good and fitting with my abilities if I get the job. It would be helping people maintain their health and avoid winding up back in the hospital, as many have been recently discharged.
All of these cases involve me waiting, not giving in to fear. Taking a risk. I have to stop being as defensive as I have been. Let my guard down. I'm NOT good at that. But it's a lesson that I must learn. That's a scary lesson for me.
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