I deleted some posts. In an emotionally turbulent place right now and being sick is not helping.
Maybe I really am being a fool. Sometimes I feel unimportant to my gf. I seem to come last on her list of priorities.
Or maybe I am just not made for this kind of relationship.
On the other hand, I am not made much for dating multiple women when I have real feelings for one. I've dated multiple women before but once my feelings go in one direction, I just cannot do it any more. I prefer monogamy but intense monogamy. (Intense NOT meaning to include anger/violence/conflict.)
She makes promises to me. I'm in no way sure what will come of them.
One thing is certain. I need to expand my social circle and activity level. Once again, difficult to do in this culture. But that's the story of my life.
Intensity is also a problem for me. Yes, in a relationship I can be possessive but not overbearing.
Maybe I really am being a fool. Sometimes I feel unimportant to my gf. I seem to come last on her list of priorities.
Or maybe I am just not made for this kind of relationship.
On the other hand, I am not made much for dating multiple women when I have real feelings for one. I've dated multiple women before but once my feelings go in one direction, I just cannot do it any more. I prefer monogamy but intense monogamy. (Intense NOT meaning to include anger/violence/conflict.)
She makes promises to me. I'm in no way sure what will come of them.
One thing is certain. I need to expand my social circle and activity level. Once again, difficult to do in this culture. But that's the story of my life.
Intensity is also a problem for me. Yes, in a relationship I can be possessive but not overbearing.
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