Happy to say daughter wants me to pick her up this evening. Told her she will be helping me make sweet rolls this weekend.
Not seeing gf until after Christmas. Her cousin had a heart attack and is in the hospital for a triple bypass. She is going to visit him, of course. Then on top of that, her stepbrother died. Not sure what from but he was in poor health due to years of substance abuse. Merry Christmas.
I'm not dumb. I know these could be made up stories to cover for time she spends with someone else. I have no verifiable evidence that anything is true. I just prefer to think otherwise. So, I let her know I am here for her no matter what. If she needs to cry, I will offer my shoulder. If she needs my arm around her, I will not hesitate. I will never judge her for any moments of emotional vulnerability.
I've been kind of selling myself out for my YouTube channel. Posting links everywhere. That's really the only way I may gain an audience. Hoping to get more views, more subscribers. I've posted links to some of them on news threads. Now that I have a decent selection of videos, I have a variety of current subjects which I can post videos to. May not do another one until after Christmas. Or maybe I will. Two frames of thought. On one hand, there may be few people watching this weekend. Even fewer who want to watch videos on politics. On the other hand, there may be many viewers and not many current videos being posted. So I may post one or two of my lesser important topics.
Crypto still doing weird things. Finally got my money from Forex and suddenly BCC trading was suspended this morning on Coinbase. WTF? Okay, just checked while writing this and it opened up again, so I bought 1/10th of a BCC. So, cryptos are down in value at the moment across the board. I know that all has to do with people pulling money out for the holidays. I am still running a positive balance on my investments. I completely expect them to skyrocket after Christmas and even more after NY. I wish I had more to invest right this minute. But that would be risky. Need to keep money in the bank to cover living expenses. Though I could well buy another 1/10th, it would be in the BCC account. That could be sold and withdrawn in minutes. Maybe I will do that.
WTF? Suspended again!!
I started doing some special exercises again. Many men do not even realize these exercises exist. I have not done them for years and specific muscles got very weak. Took having an active love life again before I could even do some of these and tell if they were having any effect. Now I can tell. I avoided these for years because they seriously increase my sex drive. To an extreme. Considering what I know my sex drive can be like and do to me, I often consider that a negative. On the positive side, they increase the intensity of my orgasm a LOT, while making that take much longer to reach. The goal (which I am nearly at) is being able to remain erect even after orgasm. Sometimes for many hours. Of course, then the question which gives me pause is whether that would be of any use? I can hope but cannot be sure. If not, it turns back into a negative.
However, I am kind of out of shape in general. I need to start going back to the gym soon. I was hoping Planet Fitness would have a special where they would waive the enrollment fee. Looks like that may not happen. They do have a special where the higher priced membership has an enrollment fee of only $10. Costs twice as much as the cheap membership but includes massage machines and tanning beds. So, I may go ahead and sign up for that one again. Going to check the hours of the nearest location. I may wind up going at strange hours if they are 24 hours on some days. Did not want to sign up until I found a job. Job found, so no more excuses.
I need a nap. Did not sleep much last night.
Not seeing gf until after Christmas. Her cousin had a heart attack and is in the hospital for a triple bypass. She is going to visit him, of course. Then on top of that, her stepbrother died. Not sure what from but he was in poor health due to years of substance abuse. Merry Christmas.
I'm not dumb. I know these could be made up stories to cover for time she spends with someone else. I have no verifiable evidence that anything is true. I just prefer to think otherwise. So, I let her know I am here for her no matter what. If she needs to cry, I will offer my shoulder. If she needs my arm around her, I will not hesitate. I will never judge her for any moments of emotional vulnerability.
I've been kind of selling myself out for my YouTube channel. Posting links everywhere. That's really the only way I may gain an audience. Hoping to get more views, more subscribers. I've posted links to some of them on news threads. Now that I have a decent selection of videos, I have a variety of current subjects which I can post videos to. May not do another one until after Christmas. Or maybe I will. Two frames of thought. On one hand, there may be few people watching this weekend. Even fewer who want to watch videos on politics. On the other hand, there may be many viewers and not many current videos being posted. So I may post one or two of my lesser important topics.
Crypto still doing weird things. Finally got my money from Forex and suddenly BCC trading was suspended this morning on Coinbase. WTF? Okay, just checked while writing this and it opened up again, so I bought 1/10th of a BCC. So, cryptos are down in value at the moment across the board. I know that all has to do with people pulling money out for the holidays. I am still running a positive balance on my investments. I completely expect them to skyrocket after Christmas and even more after NY. I wish I had more to invest right this minute. But that would be risky. Need to keep money in the bank to cover living expenses. Though I could well buy another 1/10th, it would be in the BCC account. That could be sold and withdrawn in minutes. Maybe I will do that.
WTF? Suspended again!!
I started doing some special exercises again. Many men do not even realize these exercises exist. I have not done them for years and specific muscles got very weak. Took having an active love life again before I could even do some of these and tell if they were having any effect. Now I can tell. I avoided these for years because they seriously increase my sex drive. To an extreme. Considering what I know my sex drive can be like and do to me, I often consider that a negative. On the positive side, they increase the intensity of my orgasm a LOT, while making that take much longer to reach. The goal (which I am nearly at) is being able to remain erect even after orgasm. Sometimes for many hours. Of course, then the question which gives me pause is whether that would be of any use? I can hope but cannot be sure. If not, it turns back into a negative.
However, I am kind of out of shape in general. I need to start going back to the gym soon. I was hoping Planet Fitness would have a special where they would waive the enrollment fee. Looks like that may not happen. They do have a special where the higher priced membership has an enrollment fee of only $10. Costs twice as much as the cheap membership but includes massage machines and tanning beds. So, I may go ahead and sign up for that one again. Going to check the hours of the nearest location. I may wind up going at strange hours if they are 24 hours on some days. Did not want to sign up until I found a job. Job found, so no more excuses.
I need a nap. Did not sleep much last night.
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