Daughter and I had a very good Christmas morning. She got mostly art supplies and candles, plus some money. As I expected, the things she liked most were the dragon sculpture and the easel. Most of the other stuff was additions to art supplies she already has. But a little artist can never have too many paints, brushes, etc.
She gave me blue Mason jars (love them!) filled with various things she knows I like. Screws, stocking cap, candy.. Very imaginative idea!
Dropper her off at her mother's house. Nothing else planned for the day. I'm just drinking some Tuaca. Maybe some Irish Cream later.
I'm in a fairly serene mood. Could be more so. Wish I had some pot right now but I'll wait until I can have it legally in a few more weeks.
Something I've been thinking about. Yes, I get lonely. Been alone quite a while now. However, many people think a person becomes a better person when in a relationship. I find the opposite to be true for me. Nobody is drawing me into needless drama, dragging me down into their delusions, anger or hatred. I actually become a much better person when I'm alone. If I do become attached to anyone again, it really has to be someone who is spiritually mature.
Some people still try to draw me into anger, prejudice, selfishness, etc. Those are things I will not be drawn into. I have fought this battle my whole life. I have an approach which I consider active pacifism. Absolutely not to be confused with being passive or in any way submissive. Quite the opposite. My approach takes patience, self awareness above the norm and conviction beyond any form of selfish endeavor or violence in any form. It requires logic and reason in conjunction with empathy. Just like what I wrote about my neighborhood last night, it may take time but in the face of insidious peace, hatred will eventually burn itself out. Hatred requires fuel, peace fuels itself.
Yeah, all of that makes me sound like a hippie goody two shoes. That I'm not. What I do and always have considered myself is a warrior for peace and enlightenment.
My daughter is taking after me on that. I don't expect she will never make mistakes. It's a difficult path. I somewhat expect she may actually rebel against it at some point. Surprised she hasn't yet. Rebellion would be a part of exploring herself. I'm okay with it as long as it doesn't go too far and she causes harm to herself or others. But she sees the logic and value of bringing people together over driving them apart. She also sees the value of contentment over some illusory love. Smart girl!
Think I'm going to take a long bath and maybe a nap. Good day for it.
She gave me blue Mason jars (love them!) filled with various things she knows I like. Screws, stocking cap, candy.. Very imaginative idea!
Dropper her off at her mother's house. Nothing else planned for the day. I'm just drinking some Tuaca. Maybe some Irish Cream later.
I'm in a fairly serene mood. Could be more so. Wish I had some pot right now but I'll wait until I can have it legally in a few more weeks.
Something I've been thinking about. Yes, I get lonely. Been alone quite a while now. However, many people think a person becomes a better person when in a relationship. I find the opposite to be true for me. Nobody is drawing me into needless drama, dragging me down into their delusions, anger or hatred. I actually become a much better person when I'm alone. If I do become attached to anyone again, it really has to be someone who is spiritually mature.
Some people still try to draw me into anger, prejudice, selfishness, etc. Those are things I will not be drawn into. I have fought this battle my whole life. I have an approach which I consider active pacifism. Absolutely not to be confused with being passive or in any way submissive. Quite the opposite. My approach takes patience, self awareness above the norm and conviction beyond any form of selfish endeavor or violence in any form. It requires logic and reason in conjunction with empathy. Just like what I wrote about my neighborhood last night, it may take time but in the face of insidious peace, hatred will eventually burn itself out. Hatred requires fuel, peace fuels itself.
Yeah, all of that makes me sound like a hippie goody two shoes. That I'm not. What I do and always have considered myself is a warrior for peace and enlightenment.
My daughter is taking after me on that. I don't expect she will never make mistakes. It's a difficult path. I somewhat expect she may actually rebel against it at some point. Surprised she hasn't yet. Rebellion would be a part of exploring herself. I'm okay with it as long as it doesn't go too far and she causes harm to herself or others. But she sees the logic and value of bringing people together over driving them apart. She also sees the value of contentment over some illusory love. Smart girl!
Think I'm going to take a long bath and maybe a nap. Good day for it.
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