I think I'm getting more agoraphobic. Or just really sick of stupidity, which tends to go along with interacting with people. More so in some places and times of year than others.
I doubt I would ever leave my front door if I lived in NY or NJ.
As it is, went to the grocery store tonight for supplies to make fudge. Kept having people getting right in my way and wouldn't move. To be sure, it was pretty much the same few people over and over, throughout the store. There has to be something seriously wrong with you to make that behavior a way of life. And every one of them had a slack jawed appearance.
Then I get home and the dogs (who have been using the dog door to get to their water) keep trying to knock down the solarium door. To be honest, it's not both dogs, only the younger one. Aside from having the latch wired so it cannot be opened at all by shaking the door, I placed two cinder blocks behind the door to remove any slack or movement.
This is after being on the phone with rude people all day.
Every direction I turn, I am surrounded by mindless aggression. Mindlessness in general.
I know to some point it's a constant but it definitely gets worse at certain times, like around the holidays. I don't know what gets in people's heads. Some wishing they weren't working. Some worried about money. Some wishing they were with family or even had a family. Others with their families and wish they weren't. I have sympathy until they become intrusive, then sympathy goes out the window.
With all the aggression in the world, I fully understand how some people become serial or mass murderers. At this age, I won;t be going that way. I faced that down many years ago. Could have gone that way and if I had been less self aware would have.
Think I'll stick to making fudge and being nice when I can. Got enough stuff to make several lbs of fudge but probably need one more can of cocoa. Maybe two more. I'm estimating I'll make about 8 batches of fudge.
I doubt I would ever leave my front door if I lived in NY or NJ.
As it is, went to the grocery store tonight for supplies to make fudge. Kept having people getting right in my way and wouldn't move. To be sure, it was pretty much the same few people over and over, throughout the store. There has to be something seriously wrong with you to make that behavior a way of life. And every one of them had a slack jawed appearance.
Then I get home and the dogs (who have been using the dog door to get to their water) keep trying to knock down the solarium door. To be honest, it's not both dogs, only the younger one. Aside from having the latch wired so it cannot be opened at all by shaking the door, I placed two cinder blocks behind the door to remove any slack or movement.
This is after being on the phone with rude people all day.
Every direction I turn, I am surrounded by mindless aggression. Mindlessness in general.
I know to some point it's a constant but it definitely gets worse at certain times, like around the holidays. I don't know what gets in people's heads. Some wishing they weren't working. Some worried about money. Some wishing they were with family or even had a family. Others with their families and wish they weren't. I have sympathy until they become intrusive, then sympathy goes out the window.
With all the aggression in the world, I fully understand how some people become serial or mass murderers. At this age, I won;t be going that way. I faced that down many years ago. Could have gone that way and if I had been less self aware would have.
Think I'll stick to making fudge and being nice when I can. Got enough stuff to make several lbs of fudge but probably need one more can of cocoa. Maybe two more. I'm estimating I'll make about 8 batches of fudge.
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