Today was flat.
No call back from the job.
GF did not come over at all. Said she was having nausea, vomiting and diarrhea. I figured it was stress.
Never got the brakes done. Went out, got the tire off, two smaller bolts off the caliper. Then could not break the larger bolt with the ratchet. Turned out I did not have the right size socket in 1/2". So, went and got a new set of impact sockets from Harbor Freight. By that time, the sun was getting ready to go down. Could have gotten one side done but not both. I'd rather get all of it done at once if I'm going to get that dirty. So, getting to bed soon and do it in the morning.
I, myself, have been flat today. I'm out of the manic cycle. That didn't last long. Probably would heave if I had had things to put more energy into. I can enjoy being in a manic cycle under the right circumstances. This time it was just frustrating. Little to no sex. Karaoke sucked. Nothing else to do. No job. Daughter didn't want to move all weekend. Ex being.. herself. All I could do was write. That was my only outlet.
Maybe I have swung all the way back into a depressive cycle. At least it doesn't get much worse than this for me at this age. I go flat. Libido is gone. At least I still feel like writing.
Or maybe I'm just in a place where I don't expect much from anyone. Sure seem to be in the right time and place for that.
Edit- I had just closed this when I checked my email. One good thing happened today! I started getting paid for my writing! It's not much. Seriously, not much. However, it's a start. First time I've been paid for my writing in years. So I need to keep that going.
No call back from the job.
GF did not come over at all. Said she was having nausea, vomiting and diarrhea. I figured it was stress.
Never got the brakes done. Went out, got the tire off, two smaller bolts off the caliper. Then could not break the larger bolt with the ratchet. Turned out I did not have the right size socket in 1/2". So, went and got a new set of impact sockets from Harbor Freight. By that time, the sun was getting ready to go down. Could have gotten one side done but not both. I'd rather get all of it done at once if I'm going to get that dirty. So, getting to bed soon and do it in the morning.
I, myself, have been flat today. I'm out of the manic cycle. That didn't last long. Probably would heave if I had had things to put more energy into. I can enjoy being in a manic cycle under the right circumstances. This time it was just frustrating. Little to no sex. Karaoke sucked. Nothing else to do. No job. Daughter didn't want to move all weekend. Ex being.. herself. All I could do was write. That was my only outlet.
Maybe I have swung all the way back into a depressive cycle. At least it doesn't get much worse than this for me at this age. I go flat. Libido is gone. At least I still feel like writing.
Or maybe I'm just in a place where I don't expect much from anyone. Sure seem to be in the right time and place for that.
Edit- I had just closed this when I checked my email. One good thing happened today! I started getting paid for my writing! It's not much. Seriously, not much. However, it's a start. First time I've been paid for my writing in years. So I need to keep that going.
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