Took daughter to the circus last night. Then we went to It'z Pizza. I had a coupon for a 2 for one deal, unlimited non-reward games and attractions. We stayed there pretty late.
We had fun. She said she thought it was the best circus she had seen. I kept my mouth shut and just agreed. I felt it was seriously lame this year. Except for the motorcycle in a globe act. They keep getting better, up to four cyclists at once now, which is truly impressive.
Today we went through the last box for her room. At least sorted through what she wants to keep or toss. I'll sort things out and organize the keep pile this week.
I have a box or two of my own I need to go through. I should have the whole house looking nicer this week.
Rising number of tomato plants getting started. I think the tactic of using larger containers from germination will work out well. Been starting seeds in stages and different varieties. Tonight I started some "watermelon beefsteak" tomato seeds. Supposed to grow as large as 2 lbs each.
Cilantro is growing really well in the solarium. Broccoli seems to be doing well but waiting to see. Have not had good luck with broccoli over the years but these look better than anything prior to this. Carrots and spinach are coming up slowly. Not seeing any definite signs of cucumbers yet. Planted a couple more seeds tonight but they do need consistent heat to even germinate.
I have noticed a number of times that when I pick daughter up she talks a lot. Then when I drop her off, she barely speaks at all on the drive home. Wondering if she feels some of the same things I do after dropping her off every week. Soon as I drop her off, I feel a weight, an emptiness, like it's just wrong. Looking ahead to a week of work, pressure, stress, responsibility. I never wanted to have a child and have so much separation between us. My idea of having a child included being there on a daily basis, helping her with her homework, PTA meetings..
We had fun. She said she thought it was the best circus she had seen. I kept my mouth shut and just agreed. I felt it was seriously lame this year. Except for the motorcycle in a globe act. They keep getting better, up to four cyclists at once now, which is truly impressive.
Today we went through the last box for her room. At least sorted through what she wants to keep or toss. I'll sort things out and organize the keep pile this week.
I have a box or two of my own I need to go through. I should have the whole house looking nicer this week.
Rising number of tomato plants getting started. I think the tactic of using larger containers from germination will work out well. Been starting seeds in stages and different varieties. Tonight I started some "watermelon beefsteak" tomato seeds. Supposed to grow as large as 2 lbs each.
Cilantro is growing really well in the solarium. Broccoli seems to be doing well but waiting to see. Have not had good luck with broccoli over the years but these look better than anything prior to this. Carrots and spinach are coming up slowly. Not seeing any definite signs of cucumbers yet. Planted a couple more seeds tonight but they do need consistent heat to even germinate.
I have noticed a number of times that when I pick daughter up she talks a lot. Then when I drop her off, she barely speaks at all on the drive home. Wondering if she feels some of the same things I do after dropping her off every week. Soon as I drop her off, I feel a weight, an emptiness, like it's just wrong. Looking ahead to a week of work, pressure, stress, responsibility. I never wanted to have a child and have so much separation between us. My idea of having a child included being there on a daily basis, helping her with her homework, PTA meetings..
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