Well, since my social life has been so pathetic, as has my romantic life for so long, I have decided to make a change.
I know the woman I sent the apology to is not going to respond. I have no delusions. It is entirely possible I dodged a bullet on that one. Maybe I was falling into what would have been another harmful and toxic relationship. Better it ended when it did.
Yes, I could be wrong about that as well. Maybe she thinks the same about me. Never know since we did not have the time to know each other better.
Any way, the BDSM community here has not been having any kind of gatherings or alternatives since this entire virus thing began. The way I feel about it now is that most precautions are fairly useless. It's far too late. Especially with things opening back up and so many using no precautions at all, people will contract it or not.
People are getting antsy. Including me. So, I am going to try setting up a BDSM discussion/social group at my house, maybe on a weekly basis. I will start this week.
I am still the same, I want a monogamous relationship. These meetings will not be swingers parties. It's fine if people make arrangements for their own hookups outside my house but I'm not interested in having a bunch of strangers having sex in my house and having to clean up afterward. I am not going to be looking for any polyamorous arrangements for myself, either. Though it could be possibility I could meet someone compatible at such meetings or through a social contact made at one of these meetings. If not, at least it gives me a chance for a social life and make some friends.
One problem with the meetings that have taken place here are that they have been in public spaces. A sandwich place. I feel like that limits conversation and suppresses expression. Nobody can drink, smoke, toke or truly relax. Graphic discussion must be kept quiet as to not offend other customers, since it is a family place. (I tend to wonder if the ones arranging the meetings are the franchise owners.)
So, if I hold the meetings at my house, I can make them BYOB, adult only. People can smoke on the deck, drink as they please, etc. If someone is exhibitionistic, they can feel free to disrobe.
My screen name on Fetlife is montgomerymaster. So, maybe it's time I live up to that screen name.
I know the woman I sent the apology to is not going to respond. I have no delusions. It is entirely possible I dodged a bullet on that one. Maybe I was falling into what would have been another harmful and toxic relationship. Better it ended when it did.
Yes, I could be wrong about that as well. Maybe she thinks the same about me. Never know since we did not have the time to know each other better.
Any way, the BDSM community here has not been having any kind of gatherings or alternatives since this entire virus thing began. The way I feel about it now is that most precautions are fairly useless. It's far too late. Especially with things opening back up and so many using no precautions at all, people will contract it or not.
People are getting antsy. Including me. So, I am going to try setting up a BDSM discussion/social group at my house, maybe on a weekly basis. I will start this week.
I am still the same, I want a monogamous relationship. These meetings will not be swingers parties. It's fine if people make arrangements for their own hookups outside my house but I'm not interested in having a bunch of strangers having sex in my house and having to clean up afterward. I am not going to be looking for any polyamorous arrangements for myself, either. Though it could be possibility I could meet someone compatible at such meetings or through a social contact made at one of these meetings. If not, at least it gives me a chance for a social life and make some friends.
One problem with the meetings that have taken place here are that they have been in public spaces. A sandwich place. I feel like that limits conversation and suppresses expression. Nobody can drink, smoke, toke or truly relax. Graphic discussion must be kept quiet as to not offend other customers, since it is a family place. (I tend to wonder if the ones arranging the meetings are the franchise owners.)
So, if I hold the meetings at my house, I can make them BYOB, adult only. People can smoke on the deck, drink as they please, etc. If someone is exhibitionistic, they can feel free to disrobe.
My screen name on Fetlife is montgomerymaster. So, maybe it's time I live up to that screen name.
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