My gf had to have another heart catheterization today. This is the third one in 18 months. Mostly because of an hereditary condition. This one was clear, I am happy to say.
I really think a cath was not necessary. I think this could have been determined by an echocardiogram and I had urged her to ask for that before going forward with the cath.
I talked her into asking for a CT scan of chest and abdomen. Think it's best with recurrent problems and her medical history.
The ex is trying to start some kind of conflict again. Tossing daughter in the middle. There may have been some mild misunderstanding where daughter thought I had lied about gf's name. She did know gf is married. I figured she had picked up on that. So daughter and I had a talk this weekend. I explained that I love this woman and where she is at is not good. Explained I have every intention of spending the rest of my life with my gf.
As far as the ex is concerned, I'm not sure what her problem is. She has nothing to gain from such conflict. Has her husband cheated? I don't know, not going to ask, don't care, not my monkeys, not my circus. Maybe she is actually angry that I moved this distance and am not crashing and burning? Instead, I upped the child support, gave daughter some money and am managing to keep most of the schedule the ex wants. I doubt that it is jealousy. It may be because I am healthier and look younger than I did 14 years ago in spite of my health conditions. Or that I have the ability to quit 3 jobs since I got here and go up in pay and flexibility with each jump. She wants to judge me, which is ludicrous considering things she has done and I am sure continues even now. I have friends who have hinted. Once again, not my circus, not my monkeys.
In any case, if she does something to hurt me or my gf I will utilize resources I have never used before. I'll contact my legal friends, media friends and hacker friends. I'll hold nothing back. Then print every vindictive email she has sent and give them to my daughter. Let her know who her mother really is. I still have some from years back. You don't use my daughter against me and you don't go after my gf with no reason. It's nothing but hate for the sake of hate. But that's nothing new for her. That is why I am healthier, happier and look younger now than 14 years ago.
I just don't get it. If she needed help, I would help her. Not because I have any feelings for her, God no! Just because that's who I am and because I do not want daughter to suffer along the way.
Better off not trying to understand it. I won't get any actual answers. She will just make me out to be an asshole and her a victim before she discusses anything like an adult. I don't care what the answers are, any way. I just don't care to get into some useless conflict where nobody wins anything.
Finally got a call back about shifts at work this week. On Sunday afternoon. So I picked up 3 night shifts. That's working out best. Finally ran the numbers and when I work second shift I make $2 an hours less than in Abq. I can handle that. Not sure how much I will make on night shift. May be the same or more. In any case, my check this week will be higher than my first one. I want to work enough to make most checks higher than that. I already make about double my living expenses. So hope to have enough to buy a house in a few months.
I plan on starting to get to the gym again after work, too. Not every day but at least twice a week.
Not focusing on sex any more. Allergies wiped that out. Or rather antihistamines did. Taking so many they basically destroyed my libido. Oh, well. If I had known that when I was younger I would have taken tons more antihistamines. But there are a lot more on the market now than there were then. So that would not have been an option. Better off that way at the moment, with gf being sick.
I really think a cath was not necessary. I think this could have been determined by an echocardiogram and I had urged her to ask for that before going forward with the cath.
I talked her into asking for a CT scan of chest and abdomen. Think it's best with recurrent problems and her medical history.
The ex is trying to start some kind of conflict again. Tossing daughter in the middle. There may have been some mild misunderstanding where daughter thought I had lied about gf's name. She did know gf is married. I figured she had picked up on that. So daughter and I had a talk this weekend. I explained that I love this woman and where she is at is not good. Explained I have every intention of spending the rest of my life with my gf.
As far as the ex is concerned, I'm not sure what her problem is. She has nothing to gain from such conflict. Has her husband cheated? I don't know, not going to ask, don't care, not my monkeys, not my circus. Maybe she is actually angry that I moved this distance and am not crashing and burning? Instead, I upped the child support, gave daughter some money and am managing to keep most of the schedule the ex wants. I doubt that it is jealousy. It may be because I am healthier and look younger than I did 14 years ago in spite of my health conditions. Or that I have the ability to quit 3 jobs since I got here and go up in pay and flexibility with each jump. She wants to judge me, which is ludicrous considering things she has done and I am sure continues even now. I have friends who have hinted. Once again, not my circus, not my monkeys.
In any case, if she does something to hurt me or my gf I will utilize resources I have never used before. I'll contact my legal friends, media friends and hacker friends. I'll hold nothing back. Then print every vindictive email she has sent and give them to my daughter. Let her know who her mother really is. I still have some from years back. You don't use my daughter against me and you don't go after my gf with no reason. It's nothing but hate for the sake of hate. But that's nothing new for her. That is why I am healthier, happier and look younger now than 14 years ago.
I just don't get it. If she needed help, I would help her. Not because I have any feelings for her, God no! Just because that's who I am and because I do not want daughter to suffer along the way.
Better off not trying to understand it. I won't get any actual answers. She will just make me out to be an asshole and her a victim before she discusses anything like an adult. I don't care what the answers are, any way. I just don't care to get into some useless conflict where nobody wins anything.
Finally got a call back about shifts at work this week. On Sunday afternoon. So I picked up 3 night shifts. That's working out best. Finally ran the numbers and when I work second shift I make $2 an hours less than in Abq. I can handle that. Not sure how much I will make on night shift. May be the same or more. In any case, my check this week will be higher than my first one. I want to work enough to make most checks higher than that. I already make about double my living expenses. So hope to have enough to buy a house in a few months.
I plan on starting to get to the gym again after work, too. Not every day but at least twice a week.
Not focusing on sex any more. Allergies wiped that out. Or rather antihistamines did. Taking so many they basically destroyed my libido. Oh, well. If I had known that when I was younger I would have taken tons more antihistamines. But there are a lot more on the market now than there were then. So that would not have been an option. Better off that way at the moment, with gf being sick.
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