Daughter and I went to the local zoo this weekend, thanks to the annual pass my friends sent us. It was nice. I had been under the impression it was much smaller than it is. It is clean and well kept. Rather expensive but zoos are not cheap to maintain. Happy I got daughter out to do something that involved some walking for a change. I can understand this weekend, for the most part. Cramps.
Right now I don't expect to see my gf this evening. That's okay, I need to get a nap before work. It's just that she had said she would come by early this afternoon. So I figured I could do both.
I've barely seen her last couple of weeks now. She has had illness and her heart cath. I understand all of that. However, we rarely talk about anything but her illness any more. I feel like a distant caregiver. I'm fine with being a caregiver inside the relationship but not when that is my ONLY role. She also has a GI procedure on Wed. Then her uncle died yesterday.
No matter how much I love her, I see myself putting myself aside completely. Done that before too many times. It does not end well if it continues that way.
Any way, I have 5 night shifts this week and 2 next week. So this week I will call and see if I can arrange to orient at another facility or two at night next week.
Start getting to the gym after work this week. Didn't happen last week.
I'm tired. Going to take a nap now. Don't want to be a zombie at work. It's hard turning my schedule back and forth.
Right now I don't expect to see my gf this evening. That's okay, I need to get a nap before work. It's just that she had said she would come by early this afternoon. So I figured I could do both.
I've barely seen her last couple of weeks now. She has had illness and her heart cath. I understand all of that. However, we rarely talk about anything but her illness any more. I feel like a distant caregiver. I'm fine with being a caregiver inside the relationship but not when that is my ONLY role. She also has a GI procedure on Wed. Then her uncle died yesterday.
No matter how much I love her, I see myself putting myself aside completely. Done that before too many times. It does not end well if it continues that way.
Any way, I have 5 night shifts this week and 2 next week. So this week I will call and see if I can arrange to orient at another facility or two at night next week.
Start getting to the gym after work this week. Didn't happen last week.
I'm tired. Going to take a nap now. Don't want to be a zombie at work. It's hard turning my schedule back and forth.
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