Too far

The right wing fanatics keep pushing things further and further. Using fear tactics which they cannot apparently see the long term true effects of. They do it merely for financial and political gain. The effects go far, far beyond that.

It instills a fear and anxiety in me. Which I cannot ignore.

I still have the feeling we are coming quickly up on a civil war. Not figurative but very literal. One that I intend to be prepared for. As well as I can in NM, that is. I'd feel a lot more comfortable in a lot of other places.

One thing is true. If things go sideways, I am not afraid to fight, not afraid to kill. I'm rather well trained for it. I am a liberal and a pacifist but that is completely by choice, not because I cannot be otherwise. For me there would be no emotional trauma in doing what has to be done in immediate circumstances.  I could kill by reflex and not grieve or doubt after. 

I've mentioned before that I can hit a 1" target at 300 ft. What I left out is time to zero on the target. Years ago, I could zero on a small target in under 3 seconds. For the first shot. Less than 2 seconds for subsequent shots. 

Still, I think I'll start practicing with the bow more. Not doing it now but if things start looking as bad as I expect, I'll refresh my knowledge of making explosives. That one has always been only training and theory for me. I have plenty of supplies and knowledge to make weapons and armor if needed. 

I never did get the gun I was talking about but sometime in the next few months. Maybe two plus a lot of ammo. Plus dust masks and nitrile gloves, which I intend to stock up on. Mostly gloves. Masks can be improvised easily.

All this may sound like I'm going overboard or becoming paranoid. Somehow I don't think so. Rather be prepared for something that never happens and look back later and laugh at myself than not pay attention to my intuition.