A couple of days ago, I finally got things moving to increase my efforts to get some kind of income going from my writing. Started a GoFundMe page, updated my Patreon page.
I wrote a post and then made a new video, first one in months.
I was not really organized and the video did not come out well. Going to redo it. But I showed it to my gf. In it, I state that I am single. The context is that I have things that require time, such as mundane tasks. I also mentioned work and my daughter. It's obvious in the video that I was not well focused.
Because I did not mention having a gf, she got upset. From there, seemed like she did not hear anything else in the video. The only comments she made were about me not mentioning her and that the video was too long. Each one multiple times.
I explained the rationale and it does remain valid. I have nobody helping with cooking, cleaning, housework, etc. Sure as hell nobody paying my bills but I did not mention that. I just now thought of that.
She said she did not sleep all night because of that. Really? For that?
This upsets me for something on a very different level. This is an effort I have been building to for several years. I have put many, many hours, a lot of work and a lot of emotion into. I have hopes for my writing, not only for an income but for positive changes I hope to make in the way people think. To improve this country and the world. Yet she took that effort and turned the entire subject into something about her.
Nothing else has been about me. Not in the ways I have said I want. Lately she has been saying things about how I will be better off materially with her. That would be nice but I'm not materialistic. What does matter to me just gets delayed or completely ignored. For coming onto a year now.
She also still keeps interrupting me when I speak a lot. By contrast, I already speak only a fraction of how much she does. I'm usually listening. So when she does that it just seems to indicate that she doesn't care much what I have to say.
So, at this point I feel very much emotionally alone. I don't ask anyone to help me with anything.
Starting to think I need some time to myself.
I wrote a post and then made a new video, first one in months.
I was not really organized and the video did not come out well. Going to redo it. But I showed it to my gf. In it, I state that I am single. The context is that I have things that require time, such as mundane tasks. I also mentioned work and my daughter. It's obvious in the video that I was not well focused.
Because I did not mention having a gf, she got upset. From there, seemed like she did not hear anything else in the video. The only comments she made were about me not mentioning her and that the video was too long. Each one multiple times.
I explained the rationale and it does remain valid. I have nobody helping with cooking, cleaning, housework, etc. Sure as hell nobody paying my bills but I did not mention that. I just now thought of that.
She said she did not sleep all night because of that. Really? For that?
This upsets me for something on a very different level. This is an effort I have been building to for several years. I have put many, many hours, a lot of work and a lot of emotion into. I have hopes for my writing, not only for an income but for positive changes I hope to make in the way people think. To improve this country and the world. Yet she took that effort and turned the entire subject into something about her.
Nothing else has been about me. Not in the ways I have said I want. Lately she has been saying things about how I will be better off materially with her. That would be nice but I'm not materialistic. What does matter to me just gets delayed or completely ignored. For coming onto a year now.
She also still keeps interrupting me when I speak a lot. By contrast, I already speak only a fraction of how much she does. I'm usually listening. So when she does that it just seems to indicate that she doesn't care much what I have to say.
So, at this point I feel very much emotionally alone. I don't ask anyone to help me with anything.
Starting to think I need some time to myself.
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