I had only gotten a couple of resumes out until now and planning on buckling down today. Like right now today.
So of course the computer decided to act up. BSOD. Then some other crap came up for system repair which failed. As it always does.
Restarted a couple of times. Seems to be booting properly but slowly as I write this.
Not sorry for waiting so long to look for a job. Took daughter to Yellowstone. Had extra time with her. Took time off to let my health improve.
I did not realize how much stress I was truly under with my last job. That is, once all the stupid changes were put in place. That company is cutting their own throats on a daily basis. Can tell easily the upper management is thoroughly right wing by their actions and policies. Became severely more right wing in the past year. It was not bad at first.
Couple days later-
I saved the above as draft but had not finished it.
Daughter usually goes back to her mother's on Monday this summer. Today she asked if she could stay here another day. No reason why when asked. I am kind of wondering about this. I said she should call her mother but she didn't want to. I wound up texting her mother and it was no problem.
There are definitely times I see developing exactly what I expected. The relationship between she and her mother is more strained the older daughter gets. No, I do not blame daughter for this. She can be stubborn but she is very rational. Which the ex is not. While we were on our trip, she detailed for me the same pattern the ex had when she was with me. Increasingly wound up over a period of days, blowing up for at least a day, sometimes two. Then back to normal. Then the same pattern repeats a few weeks later. When she blows up, she will not listen to reason, will not make peace, will never admit to being wrong, frequently comes off with, "You know what you did!" Even if there was nothing the other person did. No, you cannot say you were wrong or apologize without stating you did something she can hold over you. And she will hold it over you. For years. Even if it was a mistake.
So yeah, I have no problem with daughter staying here and extra day or more.
We've both been kind of lazy this weekend. I felt really tired all day today and don't know why.
Couple days later-
I saved the above as draft but had not finished it.
Daughter usually goes back to her mother's on Monday this summer. Today she asked if she could stay here another day. No reason why when asked. I am kind of wondering about this. I said she should call her mother but she didn't want to. I wound up texting her mother and it was no problem.
There are definitely times I see developing exactly what I expected. The relationship between she and her mother is more strained the older daughter gets. No, I do not blame daughter for this. She can be stubborn but she is very rational. Which the ex is not. While we were on our trip, she detailed for me the same pattern the ex had when she was with me. Increasingly wound up over a period of days, blowing up for at least a day, sometimes two. Then back to normal. Then the same pattern repeats a few weeks later. When she blows up, she will not listen to reason, will not make peace, will never admit to being wrong, frequently comes off with, "You know what you did!" Even if there was nothing the other person did. No, you cannot say you were wrong or apologize without stating you did something she can hold over you. And she will hold it over you. For years. Even if it was a mistake.
So yeah, I have no problem with daughter staying here and extra day or more.
We've both been kind of lazy this weekend. I felt really tired all day today and don't know why.
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