Finality

Hate seeming like a drama queen. The time frame for everything until now has been uncertain.
I got to spend a final long weekend with daughter before they move. The ex let daughter stay one last night and day with me.
Had to drop her off for the final time for now just 2 hours ago.
The silence in the house is deafening. Knowing no more weekends together for an uncertain time. Probably never again in this house.
We had a good weekend. Talking, watching videos, having balloon fights. She kept rubbing my head.
I made it through the weekend without breaking down. But both of us teared up several times.
I guess the closer it came to being reality, the more it hit home to her.
I kept the conversation positive. Things for her to be excited about. Explained I will be happy to leave NM and move also if they stay there.
For now I will be in survival mode, my world silent and retracted.
Try and learn whatever lessons there are to take from this.
Need to get off my tail and get some things done which have waited far too long. Partly from illness but my health is definitely improving again.
Partly because I have always sensed this was temporary.