Well, if that doesn't suck...
Been getting some things accomplished this week. Pulling weeds, patching walls. Tonight got the dishes, a load of laundry in the washer, swept and mopped, actually finally got one wall closed up (not done with that room, the bathroom), cooked dinner but nothing big. Went grocery shopping.
While at the grocery store was when it hit. An overbearing wall of deep depression.
I used to be very prone to depression. I admit I attempted suicide multiple times when I was younger. Been at least 30 years since I had a depression like tonight. I was going along just fine when it seemed like the entire world crashed around me. It must have been hovering just under the surface. The only thing that brought it on was a song. I even like the song. This time it was like a brick on the head.
I don't know, maybe I'm getting sick. Breathing in too much gypsum dust?
On the up side, I am much more emotionally stable overall than I was years ago. I also know this will not last. I just have to hang on with a white knuckle grip and ride it out.
Just going to watch some videos on YouTube and get to bed. Hope this depression is gone in the morning.
Been getting some things accomplished this week. Pulling weeds, patching walls. Tonight got the dishes, a load of laundry in the washer, swept and mopped, actually finally got one wall closed up (not done with that room, the bathroom), cooked dinner but nothing big. Went grocery shopping.
While at the grocery store was when it hit. An overbearing wall of deep depression.
I used to be very prone to depression. I admit I attempted suicide multiple times when I was younger. Been at least 30 years since I had a depression like tonight. I was going along just fine when it seemed like the entire world crashed around me. It must have been hovering just under the surface. The only thing that brought it on was a song. I even like the song. This time it was like a brick on the head.
I don't know, maybe I'm getting sick. Breathing in too much gypsum dust?
On the up side, I am much more emotionally stable overall than I was years ago. I also know this will not last. I just have to hang on with a white knuckle grip and ride it out.
Just going to watch some videos on YouTube and get to bed. Hope this depression is gone in the morning.
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