I started working on my book this week. Haven't gotten far, been a busy week at work. Trying to maintain my regular writing schedule in addition to writing the book. Haven't even been able to do my regular writing this week, so just finished my second article this week as of tonight.
I think if I write a page or 2 a day, I can finish the book in as little as 2 months. Shooting for maybe 150 pages. The exact organization and format are still developing as I write but mainly focusing on rather abstract concepts that have a broad application. Then using concrete examples.
Small example, one of the first chapters will be about indoctrination. Such as how military contractors donate money (obtained through taxpayer funded contracts) to politicians and advertise on corporate media. The media reports stories to make people afraid, feeling unsafe. People feeling afraid want to be protected, so they vote for the candidate that promises to spend more on "defense" than their opponent or predecessor. They do this by awarding contracts to military contractors and the cycle continues.
Also, been in a down cycle. Not depressed but not happy. Hits my motivation pretty hard. That was also made better by daughter saying she did not want to come over this weekend. (We had talked about why and I understand.) Plus gf had her eye surgery this week and hasn't been able to drive.
Oh, well. We went back into the cycle that everything is about her. She hasn't even noticed that I've basically stopped talking about myself. I just listen. Sex? Twice a month at most. for the next couple of weeks even if that happens, it has to be low intensity.
That's okay. My libido is low. Can't really decide if my emotions are causing that or the other way around. In any case, I have found my libido is more tied to my sense of well being than I thought. The higher my libido goes, the healthier I feel in general, physically and emotionally. Doesn't matter at all if I act on it.
So, tried an experiment tonight. Tried some Muira Puama bark powder. It increased my libido, so I felt better. Still tired but swinging my schedule around after working last night. And it got cold again. But it worked well enough that I ordered a pound of it from Amazon. Maybe it will help improve my mood. I have a feeling this down cycle may last a while.
No point talking about it, though.
I think if I write a page or 2 a day, I can finish the book in as little as 2 months. Shooting for maybe 150 pages. The exact organization and format are still developing as I write but mainly focusing on rather abstract concepts that have a broad application. Then using concrete examples.
Small example, one of the first chapters will be about indoctrination. Such as how military contractors donate money (obtained through taxpayer funded contracts) to politicians and advertise on corporate media. The media reports stories to make people afraid, feeling unsafe. People feeling afraid want to be protected, so they vote for the candidate that promises to spend more on "defense" than their opponent or predecessor. They do this by awarding contracts to military contractors and the cycle continues.
Also, been in a down cycle. Not depressed but not happy. Hits my motivation pretty hard. That was also made better by daughter saying she did not want to come over this weekend. (We had talked about why and I understand.) Plus gf had her eye surgery this week and hasn't been able to drive.
Oh, well. We went back into the cycle that everything is about her. She hasn't even noticed that I've basically stopped talking about myself. I just listen. Sex? Twice a month at most. for the next couple of weeks even if that happens, it has to be low intensity.
That's okay. My libido is low. Can't really decide if my emotions are causing that or the other way around. In any case, I have found my libido is more tied to my sense of well being than I thought. The higher my libido goes, the healthier I feel in general, physically and emotionally. Doesn't matter at all if I act on it.
So, tried an experiment tonight. Tried some Muira Puama bark powder. It increased my libido, so I felt better. Still tired but swinging my schedule around after working last night. And it got cold again. But it worked well enough that I ordered a pound of it from Amazon. Maybe it will help improve my mood. I have a feeling this down cycle may last a while.
No point talking about it, though.
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