Been working so much I've been exhausted. Trying to slow down a bit now and reach a happy medium.
Daughter's birthday was this weekend. She was happy with everything I gave her. Her first smart phone, which she was immediately obsessed with. Especially that she now has unlimited texting. I did install a parental monitoring program, though I told her about it. The program will also alert me if she turns the program off or uninstalls it. Gave her some jewelry. Nothing expensive but a moon charm, couple of chokers and (her favorite) a charm with the Fairy Tail anime emblem on it. That one was nice, from a good company in a gift box. Plus I gave her some money. Her first thought was buying presents for her friends, one whose birthday was yesterday.
Things about the same with gf. I still love her but I understand this is not going to go as promised. No reason to think it will. Been seeing each other for a year and some things we discussed have never happened. Not going to happen while she has an injured shoulder and knee. But did not happen before than, either.
So, I am seriously considering sleeping with someone else. Finding an intermittent submissive lover. I've had a few offers. It does make it an emotional challenge when it seems like a possible reality. I don't like the idea of cheating. Then again, she would not accept an open relationship.
However, time is also an issue. Working, spending time with daughter, spending time with her (which is still my preference after daughter), writing, etc. Have to sleep and been needing that sleep a lot lately.
I have not even had time for laundry this week. One problem is just getting change to do it with. The car wash coin changer is broken and the bank doesn't open until 9. By then I'm ready to crash. If I get change at the bank, I'll be up until noon doing laundry.
Right now I need to get to bed.
Going to have to really think about this.
Daughter's birthday was this weekend. She was happy with everything I gave her. Her first smart phone, which she was immediately obsessed with. Especially that she now has unlimited texting. I did install a parental monitoring program, though I told her about it. The program will also alert me if she turns the program off or uninstalls it. Gave her some jewelry. Nothing expensive but a moon charm, couple of chokers and (her favorite) a charm with the Fairy Tail anime emblem on it. That one was nice, from a good company in a gift box. Plus I gave her some money. Her first thought was buying presents for her friends, one whose birthday was yesterday.
Things about the same with gf. I still love her but I understand this is not going to go as promised. No reason to think it will. Been seeing each other for a year and some things we discussed have never happened. Not going to happen while she has an injured shoulder and knee. But did not happen before than, either.
So, I am seriously considering sleeping with someone else. Finding an intermittent submissive lover. I've had a few offers. It does make it an emotional challenge when it seems like a possible reality. I don't like the idea of cheating. Then again, she would not accept an open relationship.
However, time is also an issue. Working, spending time with daughter, spending time with her (which is still my preference after daughter), writing, etc. Have to sleep and been needing that sleep a lot lately.
I have not even had time for laundry this week. One problem is just getting change to do it with. The car wash coin changer is broken and the bank doesn't open until 9. By then I'm ready to crash. If I get change at the bank, I'll be up until noon doing laundry.
Right now I need to get to bed.
Going to have to really think about this.
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